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I actually don't know how many people read this anymore becuase I've been on a hiatus of sorts. But I feel like jumping back in and maybe in time I will not just be writing to myself.
I'm so tired of being here. I know I don't really have a right to complain and I feel horrible doing so becuase I know there are others who have it so much worse and who have had to deal with hospitals and needles their wholes lives. But knowing all that doesn't make me any more comfortable with being here. Hopefully I get to go home soon. It's been almost two weeks and last night was the first night here that I didn't feel like I was in this stark white room laying in this uncomfortable bed. I was so stressed out before I went to bed that I knew I wasn't going to be able to sleep, so instead I put on my iPod and just listened. While being here I think I've made one of my favorite playlists ever and it really did take me out of here last night. For about two hours I was somewhere else, living a different life, enjoying a different day and it was captivating. I would open my eyes and look at the room around me, but it wasn't what I was seeing. It was more relaxing then the sleep I got afterwards.
Abby and Meagan were here last night and we talked about skiing and snowboarding. Abby has never done either and Meagan went skiing for the first time last year. I've done both, but they were about six years apart. Just sharing stories with them and talking about snowboarding and being in the mountains got me excited. I'm not going to have the chance to go anytime soon, but the memories are real enough for me to hold me over until my chance comes.
I've decided I'm going to try something. I'm going to post lyrics to a different song every week. A song that has either captured my attention recently just because, is relevant to the events of the week, or just says things I can't. There are probably other reasons too, but those are what I thought of off the top of my head right now. If you ever want to know why I picked a certain song, feel free to ask.
In the light of the sun Is there anyone, ohh it has begun O dear you look so lost Eyes are red and tears are shed this world you must have crossed you said You don’t know me, and you don't even care ooo yea She said you don't know me, and you don't wear my chains ooo yea Essential yet appealed Carry all your thoughts, across an open field When the flowers gaze at you they're not the only ones who cry when they see you You said you don't know me, and you don’t even care ooo yea And she said you don't know me, and you don't wear my chains ooo yea She said I think I'm going to Boston I think I'll start a new life I think I'll start it over No one knows my name I'll get out of California I'm tired of the weather I think I'll get a lover I'll fly them out to Spain I think I'll go to Boston I think that I'm just tired I think a new town to leave this all behind I think I need a sun rise I'm tired of the sun set Here it's nice in the summer Some snow would be nice Ooo yea In Boston! No one knows my name Yeaaa No one knows my name No one knows my name In Boston no one knows my name