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i was reading some of my journal entries from freshmen year. man, i was so stupid. I was even annoyed with myself, why did anyone hang out with me?
speaking of who would hang out with me. gissell got a boyfriend, his name is danny and he works at Staples. i hung out with them and they're cute as can be. i couldn't be happier for her.
classical's going to be so lonely for me next year.
and i have to say i'm not thrilled by the idea of making friends with my fellow 07's.
I love the friends i have, i can be myself around them, and they love me for who i am.
despite this statement, my brain won't quit with the "they don't like you, they all think you're a wierdo." "no one wants you around, freak." yes, my mind can be kind of a bully from an after school special.
but these paranoias and feelings of rejection won't get me down. a few years ago it would have. but now i'm content enough in myself to be alone. i get the feeling i'll be spending a lot of time alone next year.
speaking of who would hang out with me. gissell got a boyfriend, his name is danny and he works at Staples. i hung out with them and they're cute as can be. i couldn't be happier for her.
classical's going to be so lonely for me next year.
and i have to say i'm not thrilled by the idea of making friends with my fellow 07's.
I love the friends i have, i can be myself around them, and they love me for who i am.
despite this statement, my brain won't quit with the "they don't like you, they all think you're a wierdo." "no one wants you around, freak." yes, my mind can be kind of a bully from an after school special.
but these paranoias and feelings of rejection won't get me down. a few years ago it would have. but now i'm content enough in myself to be alone. i get the feeling i'll be spending a lot of time alone next year.