Last Week
Greetings:
Well, last week ended with a bang. Not my best week ever, really. No more job. I'm not surprised at all about it, which is good, I guess. I remember posting about it last year around this time actually, that I thought my job might be in danger. And my boss feels worse about the whole thing than I do. She was actually crying when she told me. I felt bad for her, but I was amazed that I felt no such feelings for myself. *shrug* I guess it's time. I'll have to do a post or something about all the things I've learned at the vet clinic, might be kind of cathartic.
What I did find hard was going back to finish out the rest of the week. It's...difficult to find motivation to go and work for a place that doesn't want you there. On the other hand, I was all for draining as much money out of them as I can in three days. I'm so vicious.
Now begins the disheartening search for a work. Total bleh. I've been trying to find a second part time job some place else off and on for a year or so, and, as you all know, I haven't met with any raging success.
I was talking to my aunt in Montana the other day, and she said that I shouldn't feel that I am too good for any job. A job is a paycheck and I should realize this. We had a long conversation that involved things like benefits one can find in unusual or unlikely places, pride, odd jobs and Wal Mart. And that brought up a whole new topic. Wal Mart. The place I love to hate and hate to love. It's about the only place I can afford stuff anymore, but just hate the fact that I am supporting a franchise that supports things I really do not approve of. Like child labor and the rampant capitalization of the world. I don't mind a little capitalism, but too much is bad for.......getting off track......
What I started out saying is, I might end up working at Wal Mart. *cries self to sleep* The pay is fairly good and my aunt says they count any job experience you've had anywhere else as experience 'with' them and it adds to your pay. Sort of like a reward for working sometime in your life instead of sitting around. That could be cool. At least for a little while. Some part of me curls up and dies when I visualize having to say to people, when they ask where I work, "Wal Mart." And then I'm vexed with myself for having pride over the wrong sort of thing.
I think I want to laugh at myself for being more upset over the prospect of having a job that my pride can't stomach rather then being upset over losing my previous job. So weird!
First snow today! I'm watching it from my bedroom window. It's not really sticking, but it is definitely snow. Madeline and I caved last week on the heat. It was to friggin cold in the house. Our extremities were starting to freeze.
Blarg. I just remembered again that it's voting day and I still don't know what I'm going to do. It's like trying to choose the lesser of two evils, The Obama Llama or McCain the Super Pain.
I really am tempted to write in Bill Cosby and vote for him. (I guess he had this whole thing going on his comedy tour about how everyone should right his name in the blank spot and vote for him. Wouldn't that be funny?) But then I'd feel bad about abusing my privilege to vote, when I really am glad that I can vote and would hate to live someplace I couldn't. I didn't post this to start a huge debate or anything, just to express my own mental dilemma.
Maybe I'll just close my eyes and stab the ballot....
Take care everyone! Keep warm and safe! And if you are old enough to vote and live in the U.S., go out and exercise your rights and privileges!!!
EllaBeth
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Internal iPod Songs of the Day
Maria by Blondie (but I've found that I actually like the Korean version better...)
Looking For Water by Alex Parks
The Sacrifice by Micheal P
Ave Maria by Hayley Westenra