I'm Back
Hi, well after a long, long time of not writing, I'm back! I ceriously can't remember when I last wrote, but I think it was after LJ. Well here's what's up.
I was at my aunt and uncles house for two weeks cause my mother went to Guyana to do some stuff. To put it simply I hated it. My uncle was constantly lecturing me about having a balanced life. Then this one day in my aunt's car my cousin Tonya was telling her about her friend Keasha being a Manick Depressive. So I made the mistake of saying that I'm clinically Depressed. So my aunt's like "Why are you depressed?" and as soon as she said that, I started crying. Mistache number two came when I said "I don't know, can you please stop lecturing me?" then she's like "I'm not lecturing you" and I'm like "I know, but it feel's like you are."
So after I got back to the house my uncle gave me another fucking lecture!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this one.... was about taking fucking advice!!!!! and guess what??? I started crying in that one to!!!!! man, somethings ceriously fucking wrong with me.
So finally after two-weeks of fucking torture, I came home!!!! but it wasn't all great either. My B/F Alonzo and I kinda broke up. See when I first met him I told him that I was four-teen, and well... I'm not. So I didn't know how to tell him right, so I put it on my msn profile, that I'm 13. I told him to look at it. When I got home Vick told me that he was saying now that it was uncool that I lied to him. Man, I felt so guilty I can't explain it. I spent the whole weekend crying my eyes out and making plans to kill myself. On the Sunday night, we agreed to just stay friends cause I was scared that my depression was going to bring him down, and I didn't want that to happen. We agreed to go back out in about three months though. Well... let's just say that didn't happen, cause on the Monday, we were on the phone for nine and a half hours and we were supposed to be "Just friends" can yawl guess what we did in those nine and a half hours??? flurted and got back together! man, how weird eh??? yep, I know. LOL:)
And now, we're closer then ever. I love you so much Alonzo!!!
Anyways, I just came back from my last camp of the summer Camp Frienda. It was da bomb!!! I had soo much fun!!! I also just want to send a shout out to Ash and D, you guys rock!
Anyways, I spent the week there horse back riding, tubing, speeding down the lake in a speed boat, and a whole bunch of other stuff!!! I also want to go to there winter camp in MI. but the bad thing is that my brownkitis is acting up cause of the tube. What happened was when the tube stopped, I had to jump off and swim to the dock. My asthma had been acting up that day, which had made it hard for me to swim cause I was having so much trouble breathing. So Andrew one of the counsalers tossed me a rubber tube thinggy and told me to hold on to it, but being me, I fell off!! so when I came out I was freezing, and my teeth were chatterin. Then two days after that I was sick.
Other Notes
* I have my next appointment with my shrink on the twenty-eighth of August. I'm nervis for some reason, but I always am when I see a counsaler person.
* School's starting in less then two weeks! (that sucks!!!)
* It's going to be a year for Shermeen and Patryck on the Twenty-eighth of August.
* My cousins Emanuel and Kimel came to Canada from Guyana with my mother on the third of August. Kimel's also coming over to stay for afew days next weeken cause my aunts going to NY..
* My birthdays in eight days!!!
Well, that's all for now, and shouldn't that be enough??? LOL!!!!
Love, and peace out!!!
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I was at my aunt and uncles house for two weeks cause my mother went to Guyana to do some stuff. To put it simply I hated it. My uncle was constantly lecturing me about having a balanced life. Then this one day in my aunt's car my cousin Tonya was telling her about her friend Keasha being a Manick Depressive. So I made the mistake of saying that I'm clinically Depressed. So my aunt's like "Why are you depressed?" and as soon as she said that, I started crying. Mistache number two came when I said "I don't know, can you please stop lecturing me?" then she's like "I'm not lecturing you" and I'm like "I know, but it feel's like you are."
So after I got back to the house my uncle gave me another fucking lecture!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this one.... was about taking fucking advice!!!!! and guess what??? I started crying in that one to!!!!! man, somethings ceriously fucking wrong with me.
So finally after two-weeks of fucking torture, I came home!!!! but it wasn't all great either. My B/F Alonzo and I kinda broke up. See when I first met him I told him that I was four-teen, and well... I'm not. So I didn't know how to tell him right, so I put it on my msn profile, that I'm 13. I told him to look at it. When I got home Vick told me that he was saying now that it was uncool that I lied to him. Man, I felt so guilty I can't explain it. I spent the whole weekend crying my eyes out and making plans to kill myself. On the Sunday night, we agreed to just stay friends cause I was scared that my depression was going to bring him down, and I didn't want that to happen. We agreed to go back out in about three months though. Well... let's just say that didn't happen, cause on the Monday, we were on the phone for nine and a half hours and we were supposed to be "Just friends" can yawl guess what we did in those nine and a half hours??? flurted and got back together! man, how weird eh??? yep, I know. LOL:)
And now, we're closer then ever. I love you so much Alonzo!!!
Anyways, I just came back from my last camp of the summer Camp Frienda. It was da bomb!!! I had soo much fun!!! I also just want to send a shout out to Ash and D, you guys rock!
Anyways, I spent the week there horse back riding, tubing, speeding down the lake in a speed boat, and a whole bunch of other stuff!!! I also want to go to there winter camp in MI. but the bad thing is that my brownkitis is acting up cause of the tube. What happened was when the tube stopped, I had to jump off and swim to the dock. My asthma had been acting up that day, which had made it hard for me to swim cause I was having so much trouble breathing. So Andrew one of the counsalers tossed me a rubber tube thinggy and told me to hold on to it, but being me, I fell off!! so when I came out I was freezing, and my teeth were chatterin. Then two days after that I was sick.
Other Notes
* I have my next appointment with my shrink on the twenty-eighth of August. I'm nervis for some reason, but I always am when I see a counsaler person.
* School's starting in less then two weeks! (that sucks!!!)
* It's going to be a year for Shermeen and Patryck on the Twenty-eighth of August.
* My cousins Emanuel and Kimel came to Canada from Guyana with my mother on the third of August. Kimel's also coming over to stay for afew days next weeken cause my aunts going to NY..
* My birthdays in eight days!!!
Well, that's all for now, and shouldn't that be enough??? LOL!!!!
Love, and peace out!!!
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