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Well, checking my info today, I see that Joe drcreep has deleted his journal.
As he was on the livejournal site, I must assume he read my update regarding his trip here and what went on the last day. Apparently, his response was to delete his journal and still not speak to me. I won't pretend that that doesn't hurt, I have known this guy for nearly 20 years and been through quite a bit with him. I'd like to just tell him to fuck off, that this is fucking childish. But he is my friend, and I wish that whatever is up is good for him. Happy new year dude, I wish you success and happiness.
I'm watching Conner today, it's tough... I have come to the conclusion that I am just not a baby person; no way, no how. But I am his father, and I was off work and nobody else was available so I get the job. I love the kid, I do; he's my son. But I am just no good at this, perhaps as he grows older it will be easier. Then again, perhaps not, I suppose it will depend on what happens with Kim and I and how we react to each other and him in the future. Regardless, it isn't Conner's fault and I will always be there for him.
I return to work on Monday, and am actually looking forward to it. It will get me out of the box, and there are people there to talk to; people to ease my mind and distract me. I yearn for some stability and certainty in something, the surreal atmosphere of the past year has me so mixed up and I want to right myself and fly towards something, anything. Right now, I feel like I am disposable in every aspect of my life, I need to feel that I am needed somewhere and not fall into the same old traps. The things I hope for, they could be forever denied to me, but I still try to have hope; foolish as that may be, it is all I find that I have in my control to do.
-C
Well, checking my info today, I see that Joe drcreep has deleted his journal.
As he was on the livejournal site, I must assume he read my update regarding his trip here and what went on the last day. Apparently, his response was to delete his journal and still not speak to me. I won't pretend that that doesn't hurt, I have known this guy for nearly 20 years and been through quite a bit with him. I'd like to just tell him to fuck off, that this is fucking childish. But he is my friend, and I wish that whatever is up is good for him. Happy new year dude, I wish you success and happiness.
I'm watching Conner today, it's tough... I have come to the conclusion that I am just not a baby person; no way, no how. But I am his father, and I was off work and nobody else was available so I get the job. I love the kid, I do; he's my son. But I am just no good at this, perhaps as he grows older it will be easier. Then again, perhaps not, I suppose it will depend on what happens with Kim and I and how we react to each other and him in the future. Regardless, it isn't Conner's fault and I will always be there for him.
I return to work on Monday, and am actually looking forward to it. It will get me out of the box, and there are people there to talk to; people to ease my mind and distract me. I yearn for some stability and certainty in something, the surreal atmosphere of the past year has me so mixed up and I want to right myself and fly towards something, anything. Right now, I feel like I am disposable in every aspect of my life, I need to feel that I am needed somewhere and not fall into the same old traps. The things I hope for, they could be forever denied to me, but I still try to have hope; foolish as that may be, it is all I find that I have in my control to do.
-C