Adrift on a Becalmed Sea
I'm looking for an apartment today.
this is very difficult.
On one hand, I really don't have a choice in the matter and I know this is a necessary step; there is too much going on in my head to not do this.
But on the other, In doing so I still feel like I am giving up; and that all of those things going on in my head are set free to run their own course that I will not be able to come back.
I am angry at my wife for asking that I do this because I am afraid that my moving out will kill any opprotunity to fix things.
*sigh* the weather here is odd; foggy and silent. It suits the mood. I am finding it very difficult to pick up the phone and call these numbers.
-C
this is very difficult.
On one hand, I really don't have a choice in the matter and I know this is a necessary step; there is too much going on in my head to not do this.
But on the other, In doing so I still feel like I am giving up; and that all of those things going on in my head are set free to run their own course that I will not be able to come back.
I am angry at my wife for asking that I do this because I am afraid that my moving out will kill any opprotunity to fix things.
*sigh* the weather here is odd; foggy and silent. It suits the mood. I am finding it very difficult to pick up the phone and call these numbers.
-C