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Today was better. If the Sun would come out I would be a lot better. I need the Sun. I slept most of the day. Tomorrow I have to try to get out of here for a while anyway. I called the funeral homes and still no word about Jesse. I know they are in shock but something has got to be done. he hasn't been released from the medical examiner yet but I'm thinking the beginning of the week they will release him. I left word with all the funeral homes that we had got together some money to help pay on it. I don't know. I do know I cannot talk to my sister now. She is talking to one of our cousins so I guess I will go through her. It's messed up. Always has been. Anyway after all this is done I have got to concentrate on losing weight and pulling myself up again.