real updates
Well, I've admitted for the first time outside of Josh-- to my parents and now here-- that since Eve was born, I've had several sporadic seizures. I was trying not to make a big thing of it, but my parents have me scared into seeing a doctor now and I am looking into it.
My car came back from the mechanic. After spending about $300 to replace the catalytic converter, it still will not go above 40 mph. I'm not sure what's next, but I'm scared about losing all of my money. I need to save up for a down payment on a house.
Eve did the cutest thing the other day. For Christmas I got her a leappad learning system where you put in these specially made books, and you can touch the pictures and it sort of is an interactive learning tool and whatnot... well I didn't get her separate books, but there was one that came with the system, and we were looking at it together and she was touching the pictures and listening to the sounds. There is a part in the story where it goes "'Now stop that!' said Mom, 'Don't bounce off my walls!'" and when you touch the words, the leappad reads them to you. Well Eve kept touching it and looking at me to gauge my reaction, and then she started kissing me (which is rare... one usually has to initiate a kiss with Eve. Her giving kisses out of the blue is always a sweet surprise.). I thought she was just being extra loving, so I was enjoying it and hugging and kissing her back. She kept repeating this action, touching the same words and kissing me afterward. Then finally I notice a pause or a delay after she touches the words, and I look down at her, and her hands are covering her face and she's making a silent cry face, like she's about to sob any second. And I say "What's wrong, baby?" and then I realize.... she gives kisses as a way to say that she's sorry, and she must have thought that those words in the story (Now stop that! said Mom) was a scolding to her! She thought that either the mommy from the book, or that the book acting as a messenger for me-- her Mommy, was mad at her and telling her to stop! And she kept kissing me to say sorry for whatever it was she was doing wrong, and she was confused because she didn't know why she was being scolded or what it was for and she kept apologizing but this strange mommy in the book kept scolding her for no reason... Oh, it was so sad but so precious at the same time. She is such a sweet, respectful girl that she was trying to be good without even understanding what she had done wrong, and got so frustrated at the lack of mercy on the part of the book mommy that she just had to cry. And so she started crying more and making sound finally to go with it, and I just held her and told her she was a good girl and I wasn't mad at her and it was just a story. "You didn't do anything wrong," I had to tell her. She continued to kiss me while she was crying and while I was trying to soothe her. And she calmed down, we turned the sound off of the leappad for a while, and we read the book normally, and then we turned the sound back on. This time when we got to the scolding part of the book, I looked at her and smiled and laughed to show her that it was just part of the story and that nobody was mad at HER. And she was fine. Oh, the poor thing. She is the sweetest girl in the whole world. It's funny, she's in the other room right now touching the same exact words on the leappad. I think she's trying to desensitize herself, or maybe to fully understand what is going on. She's fearless and curious. What a brave adventurer I have.
My car came back from the mechanic. After spending about $300 to replace the catalytic converter, it still will not go above 40 mph. I'm not sure what's next, but I'm scared about losing all of my money. I need to save up for a down payment on a house.
Eve did the cutest thing the other day. For Christmas I got her a leappad learning system where you put in these specially made books, and you can touch the pictures and it sort of is an interactive learning tool and whatnot... well I didn't get her separate books, but there was one that came with the system, and we were looking at it together and she was touching the pictures and listening to the sounds. There is a part in the story where it goes "'Now stop that!' said Mom, 'Don't bounce off my walls!'" and when you touch the words, the leappad reads them to you. Well Eve kept touching it and looking at me to gauge my reaction, and then she started kissing me (which is rare... one usually has to initiate a kiss with Eve. Her giving kisses out of the blue is always a sweet surprise.). I thought she was just being extra loving, so I was enjoying it and hugging and kissing her back. She kept repeating this action, touching the same words and kissing me afterward. Then finally I notice a pause or a delay after she touches the words, and I look down at her, and her hands are covering her face and she's making a silent cry face, like she's about to sob any second. And I say "What's wrong, baby?" and then I realize.... she gives kisses as a way to say that she's sorry, and she must have thought that those words in the story (Now stop that! said Mom) was a scolding to her! She thought that either the mommy from the book, or that the book acting as a messenger for me-- her Mommy, was mad at her and telling her to stop! And she kept kissing me to say sorry for whatever it was she was doing wrong, and she was confused because she didn't know why she was being scolded or what it was for and she kept apologizing but this strange mommy in the book kept scolding her for no reason... Oh, it was so sad but so precious at the same time. She is such a sweet, respectful girl that she was trying to be good without even understanding what she had done wrong, and got so frustrated at the lack of mercy on the part of the book mommy that she just had to cry. And so she started crying more and making sound finally to go with it, and I just held her and told her she was a good girl and I wasn't mad at her and it was just a story. "You didn't do anything wrong," I had to tell her. She continued to kiss me while she was crying and while I was trying to soothe her. And she calmed down, we turned the sound off of the leappad for a while, and we read the book normally, and then we turned the sound back on. This time when we got to the scolding part of the book, I looked at her and smiled and laughed to show her that it was just part of the story and that nobody was mad at HER. And she was fine. Oh, the poor thing. She is the sweetest girl in the whole world. It's funny, she's in the other room right now touching the same exact words on the leappad. I think she's trying to desensitize herself, or maybe to fully understand what is going on. She's fearless and curious. What a brave adventurer I have.