I promise I'll be just there.

[elizabeth_xxx]

I wish things were different. I wish I could be happy. I try, I really really do try, but I don't know why I can't be happy. I guess I don't feel like I belong, as lame as that sounds. I feel like my friends don't really like me like they used to. People say that I've changed, and yes I have, I'm not saying that I haven't. But I haven't changed as drastically as everyone thinks. I wear the same clothes, I have the same personality, the only two things that are really different are who I hang out with and what kind of music I listen to. I don't even hang out with that different of people. Oh well, I guess I can't change what people really think about me. There's a part of me that wants to just runaway from everything, that seems like the only thing that can get rid of all my problems that I've been going through. My parents suck, some of my friends sucks, school sucks, never having money sucks, fall and winter suck.
Last year around this time, Sam was like, my best friend, and I really miss her a lot. She always made me laugh a lot. And I'm not saying that my friends don't, it's jus that I guess I had a lot of fun with her, and I don't really know what happened.

Well, on a lighter note...We're remodeling our kitchen and basically our whole house, which is awesome.
I have no idea what to do to my room, I think I want to do it like, a New York kind of theme or Paris or something sweet. Plus, Taylor's moving out of my room in a little bit, right before we start to paint my room and stuff, because she wants something totally different.

whatever.