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you know you just can't fucking win. its funny how people who haven't been there blamn the fact they haven't on you. first of all.. welcome to the millenum.. its called cell phones.. e-mails.. ims.. anything.. you know. when you've only seen your son once since the time you broke up with someone which has been well over a month now.. wouldn't you try? or would you say.. oh.. they look like their having fun i'll just sit here and let them do what they want i dont care.
then.. when i try to call him.. hes all.. 'i wasn't going to bother trying to find you'.. and i say.. here if you want to see aaron.. you can.. just this and this and this has to happen and theres the deal.. THEN he pull the .. 'oh i'll let that slide' .. well news fucking flash. im doing you a favor.. dont play high and mighty with me... when you gave up.. you lost all rights.. hes mine.. i carried him for nine months.. you have more kids that mc jagger.. and you haven't EXACTLY been responsible with the alcohol. so i dont care if you've been in twenty on the lines, part of nsync.. AND the backstreet boys. this is my son. i offered to let you be part of his life. and you tried to be all gun-ho.. you make no sense.. saying.. 'i figured id give up' then.. 'its your fault'.. its not MY fault. if i had a son with his dad instead i dont care if they moved to fucking guam.. id be on the phone in two seconds flat. you have other priorities.. ok thats fine. but i have less obviously. im his full time mother.. and thats it. get off your high horse admit you've made a mistake and move the fuck on. because i moved.. well guess what i dont have to make anything easy on you. i dont have to send out a warning.. if you were around? maybe you'd have known.. OHHH light bulb. ok so theres my rant. and i know after i post this. you'll post some other big ass rant talking in circles.. but you can name every excuse in the book.. but the fact is. you didn't try.. and you should have.. no matter where i move to. thats your blood. so stop with the buts.
then.. when i try to call him.. hes all.. 'i wasn't going to bother trying to find you'.. and i say.. here if you want to see aaron.. you can.. just this and this and this has to happen and theres the deal.. THEN he pull the .. 'oh i'll let that slide' .. well news fucking flash. im doing you a favor.. dont play high and mighty with me... when you gave up.. you lost all rights.. hes mine.. i carried him for nine months.. you have more kids that mc jagger.. and you haven't EXACTLY been responsible with the alcohol. so i dont care if you've been in twenty on the lines, part of nsync.. AND the backstreet boys. this is my son. i offered to let you be part of his life. and you tried to be all gun-ho.. you make no sense.. saying.. 'i figured id give up' then.. 'its your fault'.. its not MY fault. if i had a son with his dad instead i dont care if they moved to fucking guam.. id be on the phone in two seconds flat. you have other priorities.. ok thats fine. but i have less obviously. im his full time mother.. and thats it. get off your high horse admit you've made a mistake and move the fuck on. because i moved.. well guess what i dont have to make anything easy on you. i dont have to send out a warning.. if you were around? maybe you'd have known.. OHHH light bulb. ok so theres my rant. and i know after i post this. you'll post some other big ass rant talking in circles.. but you can name every excuse in the book.. but the fact is. you didn't try.. and you should have.. no matter where i move to. thats your blood. so stop with the buts.