I am so freaking hungry
I am exhausted. I can't and haven't been sleeping through the night since Saturday night after John's birthday party. Initially I thought I had strep throat but after reading through the symptoms online its much more likely I have Viral Pharyngitis or Tonsillitis. Which can thankfully go away on their own after usually about a week, the things I read also said that Strep normally goes away on its own also and the only reason antibiotics are prescribed is to stop the contagiousness of the virus. That they don't really have an effect on fixing anything. Which is incredibly hopeful in the eyes of the girl who doesn't have health insurance and hasn't heard back from any of the jobs that could give her that.
It hurts so badly though. Today marks 3 days and I haven't stopped going to work but I have been washing my hands like crazy after I do anything. Swallowing is such a chore it hurts so much. And if I drink anything it has to be lukewarm not cold and not hot. Yesterday morning Mom made me tea with honey and I was so tired I fell asleep momentarily with it in my hand and spilled it on my jacket. Sunday when I wasn't feeling well I though I was also looking fat until I finally got home and looked in a mirror that had adequate lights backing it and realized my lymph nodes were crazy swollen. The left side was and still is worse but that first day it felt like I had a hot dog under my skin on my neck. Now the right side isn't swollen at all and the left still is just to a much lesser degree.
Sunday night after stopping home after work I went to Target to return something I had gotten for Dad and brought Denise and Deanna with me because they both wanted to do some shopping there and while we were there Denise talked to her Mom on the phone and told her about me possibly having strep. Which I assumed that's what it was because of the white spots in the back of my throat. And her Mom, Kathy, told me to get Chloraseptics which should help better than other things and it did. I opened the package while we were still in the store and by the time we left the swelling was already going down in my neck. But since then I haven't really seen an improvement. I tried sleeping on the recliner last night because that's where I fell asleep with the tea and I thought it maybe had something to do with how I was sitting as opposed to lying down and that failed. I did though fall asleep there this morning again until Dad woke me up because he was on a conference call and I was snoring. I think by that time I'm just so freaking tired my body caves despite all what was stopping it beforehand.
My throat just hurts so, so, so bad. I had to swallow earlier today and I thought I was going to start crying. And earlier around 12pm bought a pomegranate-tangerine Hint, which is unsweetened essence water and its good but I haven't even drank half of it yet. The last few days I've forced myself to keep salivating by eating vitamin c candies and drinking a ton of water but today it was momentarily nice to just let my mouth dry out and not swallow at all. Momentarily because as soon as someone walked it I would have to swallow so as to have a voice and it would generally be extra painful. And its torturous when someone calls. Though with how slow it was today and how much work I had already completed I was able to nap from 3pm-4pm with only about 3 interruptions.
Also I'm starving. I tried eating earlier and it was an epic failure. I think I'm going to have to buy slim fasts or something to at least ensure I'm getting all the nutrients I should be getting. And its weird too because I had solid food with Dad last night and was cool as long as I took tiny bites but not today. I only have about less than an hour of work left and Tony hasn't called to say he was coming late. Which doesn't mean he won't, he's called at 6 before to tell me he was going to be late. But I'm hopeful. I already got most of my pay from Dan Ping and Tony last week so I could do some Christmas shopping. And I'm just about done. What I get now will go into my overdrawn account and even me out before Planet Fitness tries to take their monthly thing out and sets me back another 32.00 for a way less charge.
It hurts so badly though. Today marks 3 days and I haven't stopped going to work but I have been washing my hands like crazy after I do anything. Swallowing is such a chore it hurts so much. And if I drink anything it has to be lukewarm not cold and not hot. Yesterday morning Mom made me tea with honey and I was so tired I fell asleep momentarily with it in my hand and spilled it on my jacket. Sunday when I wasn't feeling well I though I was also looking fat until I finally got home and looked in a mirror that had adequate lights backing it and realized my lymph nodes were crazy swollen. The left side was and still is worse but that first day it felt like I had a hot dog under my skin on my neck. Now the right side isn't swollen at all and the left still is just to a much lesser degree.
Sunday night after stopping home after work I went to Target to return something I had gotten for Dad and brought Denise and Deanna with me because they both wanted to do some shopping there and while we were there Denise talked to her Mom on the phone and told her about me possibly having strep. Which I assumed that's what it was because of the white spots in the back of my throat. And her Mom, Kathy, told me to get Chloraseptics which should help better than other things and it did. I opened the package while we were still in the store and by the time we left the swelling was already going down in my neck. But since then I haven't really seen an improvement. I tried sleeping on the recliner last night because that's where I fell asleep with the tea and I thought it maybe had something to do with how I was sitting as opposed to lying down and that failed. I did though fall asleep there this morning again until Dad woke me up because he was on a conference call and I was snoring. I think by that time I'm just so freaking tired my body caves despite all what was stopping it beforehand.
My throat just hurts so, so, so bad. I had to swallow earlier today and I thought I was going to start crying. And earlier around 12pm bought a pomegranate-tangerine Hint, which is unsweetened essence water and its good but I haven't even drank half of it yet. The last few days I've forced myself to keep salivating by eating vitamin c candies and drinking a ton of water but today it was momentarily nice to just let my mouth dry out and not swallow at all. Momentarily because as soon as someone walked it I would have to swallow so as to have a voice and it would generally be extra painful. And its torturous when someone calls. Though with how slow it was today and how much work I had already completed I was able to nap from 3pm-4pm with only about 3 interruptions.
Also I'm starving. I tried eating earlier and it was an epic failure. I think I'm going to have to buy slim fasts or something to at least ensure I'm getting all the nutrients I should be getting. And its weird too because I had solid food with Dad last night and was cool as long as I took tiny bites but not today. I only have about less than an hour of work left and Tony hasn't called to say he was coming late. Which doesn't mean he won't, he's called at 6 before to tell me he was going to be late. But I'm hopeful. I already got most of my pay from Dan Ping and Tony last week so I could do some Christmas shopping. And I'm just about done. What I get now will go into my overdrawn account and even me out before Planet Fitness tries to take their monthly thing out and sets me back another 32.00 for a way less charge.