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my heart is beating like a bunny's and my head throbbing like a gong.
i feel full of holes. missing many pieces. like much of me leaked out or died last night. i think i nearly drank too much for the first time in my life. everything is foggy and incomplete, but i remember spending a very long time on the bathroom floor around 4am. sinking into the tiles like quicksand. monsieur was making pasta. luckily there was nothing in my stomach to be expelled.
i hope i'll be back to normal sometime.
or something.
i feel full of holes. missing many pieces. like much of me leaked out or died last night. i think i nearly drank too much for the first time in my life. everything is foggy and incomplete, but i remember spending a very long time on the bathroom floor around 4am. sinking into the tiles like quicksand. monsieur was making pasta. luckily there was nothing in my stomach to be expelled.
i hope i'll be back to normal sometime.
or something.