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I would like to announce that I've eaten like a total pig so far this weekend, buying candy and cookies when I know that I shouldn't, eating crap frozen dinners, and I do not feel good. Both physically and mentally, I do not feel good. This is how I used to eat. Every single day - "just this one thing, diet starts tomorrow, a few won't hurt, I'm depressed, I deserve this pint of ice cream, I'll do some sit-ups in the morning, oh look, cookie dough, well, I'm at a party so it doesn't count".

I didn't lose thirty pounds by living that way, and I don't live that way anymore, and if I want to be toned and fit (and I do) then I can't go back to living that way. I've been growing healthier and healthier by watching everything I eat and by using actual willpower. And by knowing full well that I feel like hell when I don't eat right.

It's no excuse but the damn cold - it saps me. I just want to curl up and eat junk food.

Anyway, that all stops this instant.

Oh, and some crunches while watching TV don't count, kid. You have to move. I know it's cold but get up and move.

This has been a message to myself.

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I Am Legend was really good. So was seeing the proper Batman trailer. He's so got the maniacal laugh down. He's a lunatic. This is going to be the greatest. And don't get me started on Christian Bale. Nom.

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Dear Whomever,

Please make my boyfriend better. He's feeling so poorly and not himself at all, and it's lonely here without him awake and laughing and stuff. So give the soup and ginger ale and medicine and vitamins and love a boost, would you?

Thanks.