this is me. a little history.
i got an email from my mom saying that she recieved a letter from like....it was either my adoption agency or the state, saying how since im 21, that i can get access to any legal adoption papers that have been filed away since i came into this country, just shy of my 2nd birthday. its not my real birthday. i dont know it exactly, because i was found at a police department, and there wasnt a note...or maybe. but i doubt there was a specific date saying "here is my daughter (or whatever relation i was to that person) her birthday is____ (fill in blank) her name is____ (fill in blank).
this might be why i dont believe too much in astrological signs. i dont know what mine really is. for now, i guess ill just stick with the Capricorn...
i used to wonder a lot about my birth parents, well, more like what they looked like than who they were, because my parents here ARE my parents. but im curious to maybe find out if there are, in fact, any papers that might lead to their identities, or maybe stating their reasoning to why i was brought to a police department, and abandoned...
growing up in a suburb in southern NH, mostly middle class white people...i never really saw myself as "the asian" or whatever. i didnt think i looked funny with my white parents and older brother, whose biological to my parents. we were a family. i saw from the inside...i often felt like other people thought we lookd funny. or maybe me. not that no one liked me. just that...it was...different. i used to want to be like on the real world haha or some shit like that. i figured my chances were pretty good,c ause id be the " stereotypical asian"...maybe not stereo...but like the tolken asian, to represent. haha...to represent. HA.
but either way...i dont regret who i am, and how i was brought up, and who my family is, and who my friends are. i dont regret the way i lived my life up till now. i dont regret my choices...(well....for the MOST part) i think i have a positive future. i think im surrounded by positive people. i think i have positive goals.
thats my deep thought and ranting for a while.
ps. im going to be a sexy nurse for halloween, with white pumps and all.
i also got a fucking sweet skull tattoo on my left arm.
<3
*elissa*
this might be why i dont believe too much in astrological signs. i dont know what mine really is. for now, i guess ill just stick with the Capricorn...
i used to wonder a lot about my birth parents, well, more like what they looked like than who they were, because my parents here ARE my parents. but im curious to maybe find out if there are, in fact, any papers that might lead to their identities, or maybe stating their reasoning to why i was brought to a police department, and abandoned...
growing up in a suburb in southern NH, mostly middle class white people...i never really saw myself as "the asian" or whatever. i didnt think i looked funny with my white parents and older brother, whose biological to my parents. we were a family. i saw from the inside...i often felt like other people thought we lookd funny. or maybe me. not that no one liked me. just that...it was...different. i used to want to be like on the real world haha or some shit like that. i figured my chances were pretty good,c ause id be the " stereotypical asian"...maybe not stereo...but like the tolken asian, to represent. haha...to represent. HA.
but either way...i dont regret who i am, and how i was brought up, and who my family is, and who my friends are. i dont regret the way i lived my life up till now. i dont regret my choices...(well....for the MOST part) i think i have a positive future. i think im surrounded by positive people. i think i have positive goals.
thats my deep thought and ranting for a while.
ps. im going to be a sexy nurse for halloween, with white pumps and all.
i also got a fucking sweet skull tattoo on my left arm.
<3
*elissa*