ugh
well, my first exam was good actually. so maybe I won't fail all of them :-) however I have weird feelings inside me, and despair at the amount of money I have frittered away on crap recently. I've actually no idea how I'm going to pay for stuff this summer...my job won't cover everything. I may have to busk on the underground or something, find a performing monkey...anyway feeling terrible because I can just about afford to go to devon this summer but paris is looking doubtful, and I feel really bad about letting rowana down. Not even sure if I can afford to do any day trips this summer, and the fact it's my own stupid fault doesn't make it better I guess. Oh well...if the performing monkey doesn't work out, maybe I can sell all my furniture..ok ellie, STOP. *slaps self around a bit*
right. where was I? yes my exam went ok, so that was a relief. German tomorrow which should be alright...stressing about the essay on thursday though, terrified I won't remember all the facts and whatnot. In the meantime I will breathe, eat chocolate and try not to worry.
hmm...I'm still worrying.