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[elisha_219]

settling down
black abyss
going nowhere
lost in this

i feel the push and pull
dragging me through
taking me further away
it's times like these i stop and say
what is the point of these- same shit, different days?

i open the door to the room with the void
staring future in the face
a black hole ready to suck me in
i can almost feel the energy yearning to consume me

i am incomplete
there are so many cracks within me
what can repair a thing that was never whole?
so should i just conform and deny
that still small voice screaming within me?
i vowed to never assimilate.
but here i am
enslaved again
and now i wonder what controls me
but this will pass
and i'll soon forget this useless revelation.

the warring inside of me, how i long to live a life of meaning
to desert these inconsequential ideals.
i want to live out something worthwhile
if i look back on my life, and it was lived all for nothing...
what a horrific thought.
Dear God don't let that happen to me.

there are so many things wrong with the way we live
i want to tear the foundations down
i want the earth to tremble at the feet of the truth
i want the end to come, so they all can finally see the face upon which they've spat.
it's time for reality to hit. i'm tired of this sordid existence.
oh, that i had something to live for.
oh, that i would not remain as one who chases the wind.