Mosby
I am so sorry little mister. It's all my fault. It was my neglegence that got you killed. I didn't clean your cage enough. .You were stressed I forgot to give you your meds a couple times at the beggining of all this, when it was crucial for you to get better. I can't believe your gone. I sware I'll never get a hamster again. It's too heartbreaking to loose you. I should have had you spent the night with me last night, I knew it. I was looking at you in the passenger seat on the way to the Vet thinking, this is the last time I'm gonna see you there beside me on a car ride. I knew I was going to have to put you to sleep. The Doctor said you went peacefully. I prayed to St. Francis the patron Saint of Animals to help you on the way to the Animal Hospital so I guess he did help in making your passing a peaceful one. They were so sweet there. Do understanding. The receptionist came in to talk to me and told me how she know that he was more than just a hamster and some people don't understand. She told me about her pet rat she once had and got my a glass of water to help me calm down. She also said he was the luckiest hamster she ever met because not a lot of people take there hamsters to the vet when they get sick so many times like I did. They were nice enough to just take my card so I didn't have to go out front to pay. When the Doctor returned with his little body she handed him to me in a little white bax, and they used a bright orange marker on it to write his name and draw a big heart over it. It was very sweet of them. The Doctor was very kind about everything. Everyone expressed their condolences and were very gentle with me. I hurried out to the car crying. I sat a bit and looked to my side to see a little occupied coffin instead of a hamster scurrying about their carrier. i boke down some more before I could muster the ability to start the drive home. Half way down Park Avenue we were stopped so a funneral procession could pass. Then a lyric from a song rang loud on the radio "Death has lost and Love has Won!" From Natialie Grant's song "Alive" and it just hits me. God is speaking to me and sending me some kind of comfort and I'm overwhelmed. I love you Mosby and I hope your happy in Jesus's hands. I'm sorry I let you down, but I hope you found some joy being here with me, beacuse you certainly brought so much joy to my life.