Recovery
Now that i have come back down to earth from my really outrageous pity party that i was attending the other day i feel a little better. I know i shouldnt get myself so worked up about stuff. I think my hormonal imbalance didnt help the situation.. i am sorry for whomever had to read that pitiful entry.. Oh well. One of the men i work with who really has no business judging my parenting abilities, he actually usually pisses me off more than helps me out, told me the other day that i should stop feeling bad for myself and start changing the things in my life that i was unhappy about. As annoying as he can be at time i know that he was right about that. sometimes admitting there are changes to be made is a big and really scary step. Also saying there changes need to be made and actually making them is a lot harder than it sounds. I applied for school so that i could get on with my life i have to remember that. All the stress and aggrivation that is going to be the next year will be worth it in the end. right? I have been thinking quite a lot lately about maybe relocation after school is done with.. I believe if i get my national registry ticket then i can go pretty much anywhere and just challenge the exams in those states.. i maybe wrong about that. I am not sure where i would want to go yet.. anyone have any suggestions? States with good EMS systems would be great... or just a nice place to live. Or hell someplace with lots of single men.. haha...
Monday night we had school so there we all were about a half an hour early and walking up to the building when it came to light that all the doors were locked.. It being a holiday and all the college itself was closed.. about twenty minutes later we had finally found the hundred year old security guard and managed to get him to open the doors for us.. We actually managed to start on time and get out of class early.. I think that had more to do with the fact that all the people in my class wanted to go watch the Red Sox game... i am not a big baseball fan, football is more my sport of choice. We have class tonight, we are learning about shock and fluid replacement woohoo and soon within the next week we will begin torturing eachother under the guise of learing how to properly administer an IV...oh yea baby that ought to be fun .. we will all look like heroin addicts with track marks up and down our arms..
The weather sucks here today it is cold and rainy and windy. Perfect day to stay cuddled up at home watching cartoons with ryan. We bought the biggest pumkin yesterday it took me a while to find it in the bin but it is a perfect specimen if you ask me big and round and orange so awesome.. I actually feel kinda bad about the prospect of cutting into it. well time to go snuggle under the blanket again it is chilly in here. Sorry again to all of you who were unlucky enough to have to read my last post i will try to keep that bitterness to a minimum from now on...