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Comprimise is hard, but it becomes easier as we realize what we would lose if we didnt give in a little.
Thats something I am learning lately. Things have gotten better. Stress levels went down a bit. The reality of graduation is setting in. I have started applying at different places around town. In hopes that someone will eventually call me back. Anything at this point would be good. I was really looking forward to Oregon this summer, but it seems those plans have changed. I can no longer afford to wait. I am just trying to hold on to the one thing that meant a lot to me. But surviving on my own after graduation means more. Eventually I will spend some time up there, away. But until then, I have to comprimise, I have to work, and help out my fiance, so that he doesnt go into debt. I cant complain. God, he tries so hard for me. And I dont know what the hell I would do if I didnt have him. What would have become of me if I had ended it, or never started it.... Well, it doesnt matter. I am more in love with him now than I was before. Maybe it takes a little bit of shaking around to realize what you really have. So I guess the saying is true: You never know what you have until it's gone.
Crying for hours the other night, made me realize I could never ask for anything more. I fully commit myself to making it work.
Mike, I love you.
Thats something I am learning lately. Things have gotten better. Stress levels went down a bit. The reality of graduation is setting in. I have started applying at different places around town. In hopes that someone will eventually call me back. Anything at this point would be good. I was really looking forward to Oregon this summer, but it seems those plans have changed. I can no longer afford to wait. I am just trying to hold on to the one thing that meant a lot to me. But surviving on my own after graduation means more. Eventually I will spend some time up there, away. But until then, I have to comprimise, I have to work, and help out my fiance, so that he doesnt go into debt. I cant complain. God, he tries so hard for me. And I dont know what the hell I would do if I didnt have him. What would have become of me if I had ended it, or never started it.... Well, it doesnt matter. I am more in love with him now than I was before. Maybe it takes a little bit of shaking around to realize what you really have. So I guess the saying is true: You never know what you have until it's gone.
Crying for hours the other night, made me realize I could never ask for anything more. I fully commit myself to making it work.
Mike, I love you.