Post of regrets
This is a really.. uh whiny post.
So hi. I haven't written in this thing for ages, and.. I'm just going to write out my feelings because I am in such a mess right now..
As many of you know, my school situation is not so good right now. I'm fighting to get a freakin' 3.0, (goodbye college) so.. my parents are obviously very enraged about that. The thing is, I have the ability to study and get As but I choose not to. This is because I've had this habit of procrastination since junior high school. It's pretty funny to say this, but I blame it all on .. photoshop. Why? Because.. In junior high school I couldn't take my hands off of it. People would ask me to make them layouts, and me being the doormat I was, happily made them layouts every single day while my grades fell drastically. It was a stupid thing for me to do, and at the time I didn't know how far down that single habit would take me. Over the years that habit evolved into a computer addiction, and that is what made my grades what they are today. Haha, it sounds like a pretty stupid thing to do, and I don't know why I fell so easily into it. Let's just say I regret it like a bitch. Like so much, it's unfathomable how much I regret it right now. I have obviously lost my parents' trust and respect for myself.. and it's just the fact that I let that addiction take over and get as far as it got that's really sad, you know? Haha. Mm.. I've just made it harder for myself, and.. we'll just see where life takes me. If I have to go to Ohlone, then.. so be it.
Haha anyway.. So my current situation is freakin' summer school stuff. Um.. chemistry I have to either raise my grade in the class in order not to take summer school or take class during the summer again. The problem is, if I take chemistry during the summer, the schedule for that class overlaps my US History summer class schedule. (This is only if my AP scores don't turn out to be a 3, since my teacher wouldn't round my 69.4 up unless I get a 3 on the test) So yeah, I'm in a dilemma. My dad wants me to take both, and just take chem at Chabot, but I dont know if chabot even counts...? Hahahaisdoajdiasokda. Yeah, pray for me guys. This kind of situation makes me wonder if it's correlated with the fact that I've been rejecting God from my life for the past few years, and it's come back to kick me in the face REALLY HARD. I knew this day would come.. hahahaha.
Yeah.. Most of you probably think I'm a pathetic little fool while shaking your heads in disapproval, but.. whatever. I'm not cut out to be a Mission student.
Other than that.. have I ever written about my singing in this journal? I'm pretty sure I haven't. YEAH-- I like to sing. I'm not sure if I'm going to try out for Camaraderie 2, or even if it's still on, because I hear that it might not even happen.
YEAH... THAT'S MY LIFE. As of now, at least.
Oh yeah btw, here's a recent picture of me and my sister at a wedding last saturday. I had to sing a 98 degrees song HAHAHA...
Hahaha. Look at my retarded teeth.
bye!
So hi. I haven't written in this thing for ages, and.. I'm just going to write out my feelings because I am in such a mess right now..
As many of you know, my school situation is not so good right now. I'm fighting to get a freakin' 3.0, (goodbye college) so.. my parents are obviously very enraged about that. The thing is, I have the ability to study and get As but I choose not to. This is because I've had this habit of procrastination since junior high school. It's pretty funny to say this, but I blame it all on .. photoshop. Why? Because.. In junior high school I couldn't take my hands off of it. People would ask me to make them layouts, and me being the doormat I was, happily made them layouts every single day while my grades fell drastically. It was a stupid thing for me to do, and at the time I didn't know how far down that single habit would take me. Over the years that habit evolved into a computer addiction, and that is what made my grades what they are today. Haha, it sounds like a pretty stupid thing to do, and I don't know why I fell so easily into it. Let's just say I regret it like a bitch. Like so much, it's unfathomable how much I regret it right now. I have obviously lost my parents' trust and respect for myself.. and it's just the fact that I let that addiction take over and get as far as it got that's really sad, you know? Haha. Mm.. I've just made it harder for myself, and.. we'll just see where life takes me. If I have to go to Ohlone, then.. so be it.
Haha anyway.. So my current situation is freakin' summer school stuff. Um.. chemistry I have to either raise my grade in the class in order not to take summer school or take class during the summer again. The problem is, if I take chemistry during the summer, the schedule for that class overlaps my US History summer class schedule. (This is only if my AP scores don't turn out to be a 3, since my teacher wouldn't round my 69.4 up unless I get a 3 on the test) So yeah, I'm in a dilemma. My dad wants me to take both, and just take chem at Chabot, but I dont know if chabot even counts...? Hahahaisdoajdiasokda. Yeah, pray for me guys. This kind of situation makes me wonder if it's correlated with the fact that I've been rejecting God from my life for the past few years, and it's come back to kick me in the face REALLY HARD. I knew this day would come.. hahahaha.
Yeah.. Most of you probably think I'm a pathetic little fool while shaking your heads in disapproval, but.. whatever. I'm not cut out to be a Mission student.
Other than that.. have I ever written about my singing in this journal? I'm pretty sure I haven't. YEAH-- I like to sing. I'm not sure if I'm going to try out for Camaraderie 2, or even if it's still on, because I hear that it might not even happen.
YEAH... THAT'S MY LIFE. As of now, at least.
Oh yeah btw, here's a recent picture of me and my sister at a wedding last saturday. I had to sing a 98 degrees song HAHAHA...
Hahaha. Look at my retarded teeth.
bye!