weird.
I'm not going to pretend reading that didn't kind of feel like a slap in the face. Great.
Today I slept in super late, probably until 3 ish. Well, that was after my mom woke me up at 730 am because I had apparently fallen asleep in the arm chair. Anyway. I woke up, went out to lunch with my little brother, came home, showered, and went into work at 5. Work was... semi fun. Kyle was even there, so that's something. My favorite conversation of the night was, "If you had to have sex with any animal other than a human, what would it be and why?" I worked til midnight, went to Sheetz with people, saw sexy Brandon who looks like Chad Michael Murray, then came home. And here I am.
Tomorrow I'm going out with David so we can wig/costume shop for Cameron (Kevin Smith). We'll most likely get coffee and lament our woes to one another. Then I work 7-close, as usual. I'm super tired and super done with high school.
Oh, I'm probably going to VCU, by the way. Faith and I will room together, and hopefully share a suite with Mary/Melissa. That's the plan, at least.
Meh. I'm sort of... numb and indifferent.
I wish this thing with Chris wasn't so slow going. Actually, it isn't even a thing yet, I can't call it that. It's more like... talk. I'm sick of the "we should hang out!!", I don't get why it can't just be like, "Let's hang out Saturday." It's sad. Except at the same time, I don't even really care. I mean, I care, but I'm not hung up on it. Whatever.
Really all I want to do from this point out is just work on Digital Video stuff, nothing else really matters or interests me. Blahh.
I can't wait til Jordan and I are in New York City. Even though I not-so-subtly hinted tonight I wanted us to hang out at her house after and she pretty much ignored me. That was... cool.
Ugh.
So many people that have had such an effect on my life and who I am as a person, we never speak now. Or we do occasionally through some limited form of communication like IM's or text messages, and we stay just as distant as ever.
You know, I wish we still could talk, but we can't, and you wouldn't want to. I want to be like, "we're more alike now than you probably thiiiink" but that would have no effect whatsoever. I want to just hang out with you and it not be weird and you not hate me.
I want to feel like someone actually wants to be with me.
Today I slept in super late, probably until 3 ish. Well, that was after my mom woke me up at 730 am because I had apparently fallen asleep in the arm chair. Anyway. I woke up, went out to lunch with my little brother, came home, showered, and went into work at 5. Work was... semi fun. Kyle was even there, so that's something. My favorite conversation of the night was, "If you had to have sex with any animal other than a human, what would it be and why?" I worked til midnight, went to Sheetz with people, saw sexy Brandon who looks like Chad Michael Murray, then came home. And here I am.
Tomorrow I'm going out with David so we can wig/costume shop for Cameron (Kevin Smith). We'll most likely get coffee and lament our woes to one another. Then I work 7-close, as usual. I'm super tired and super done with high school.
Oh, I'm probably going to VCU, by the way. Faith and I will room together, and hopefully share a suite with Mary/Melissa. That's the plan, at least.
Meh. I'm sort of... numb and indifferent.
I wish this thing with Chris wasn't so slow going. Actually, it isn't even a thing yet, I can't call it that. It's more like... talk. I'm sick of the "we should hang out!!", I don't get why it can't just be like, "Let's hang out Saturday." It's sad. Except at the same time, I don't even really care. I mean, I care, but I'm not hung up on it. Whatever.
Really all I want to do from this point out is just work on Digital Video stuff, nothing else really matters or interests me. Blahh.
I can't wait til Jordan and I are in New York City. Even though I not-so-subtly hinted tonight I wanted us to hang out at her house after and she pretty much ignored me. That was... cool.
Ugh.
So many people that have had such an effect on my life and who I am as a person, we never speak now. Or we do occasionally through some limited form of communication like IM's or text messages, and we stay just as distant as ever.
You know, I wish we still could talk, but we can't, and you wouldn't want to. I want to be like, "we're more alike now than you probably thiiiink" but that would have no effect whatsoever. I want to just hang out with you and it not be weird and you not hate me.
I want to feel like someone actually wants to be with me.