in your future... i see...
Lots of people talk about new years resolutions. I normally don't make them. But I made one last year, and I was actually proud of accomplishing it, so I figured I'd make one this year too. This year's is harder for me.
Another thing is, only make one. And make it a small one at that. If you make it too big, or you make too many, usually you end up not doing any of them cause it's too much.
Work is pretty stressful for me right now. I have a lot to do and I want to get it all done on time but I think one of my deadlines may have to suffer. It's an internal deadline, so it's just a "I'd like it if we had something by X" type of thing, but those are usually pretty important too, so that other people can then do their job on top of mine. So I'll see if I can be superwoman.
Anyway, I also wanted to say that I've found some good friends here in this past year. Melanie posted about what she will remember from 2008. What I'll remember is learning a bit better how to re situate myself. Making friends in a new environment doesn't necessarily go quickly. It takes a while to find good people sometimes, truly good people. People that accept you for who you are but also challenge you and take care of you. People who are honest and good and helpful. I thought I'd found the best there was here, and so didn't give others a chance cause, frankly, I was biased. Always meet new people, always get to know others. I learned that there are actually lots of good people - I was just looking in the wrong areas for them. I tried to stick to a group I thought I belonged to, and when I felt kicked out I tried to stay... then I realized I didn't need them. Not only that, but I didn't want them. I looked elsewhere and found good people. I am much happier now than I've been in the past year and a half or so, and have been feeling like that since around the summer actually.
Another thing that's fairly big for me is that I don't feel like I need a relationship. This is a rare thing for me I guess, but for the first time in a long while I actually am honestly feeling fine about being single. I want to revel in this for however long it lasts. I think I used to kinda shrug it off, but kinda want it. Now I am completely at ease about my status. That doesn't necessarily mean everything's easier now though. Matter of fact I'm currently confused about some things. Though I have felt more calm and relaxed. Wish I could transfer some of that into my work.
Another thing is, only make one. And make it a small one at that. If you make it too big, or you make too many, usually you end up not doing any of them cause it's too much.
Work is pretty stressful for me right now. I have a lot to do and I want to get it all done on time but I think one of my deadlines may have to suffer. It's an internal deadline, so it's just a "I'd like it if we had something by X" type of thing, but those are usually pretty important too, so that other people can then do their job on top of mine. So I'll see if I can be superwoman.
Anyway, I also wanted to say that I've found some good friends here in this past year. Melanie posted about what she will remember from 2008. What I'll remember is learning a bit better how to re situate myself. Making friends in a new environment doesn't necessarily go quickly. It takes a while to find good people sometimes, truly good people. People that accept you for who you are but also challenge you and take care of you. People who are honest and good and helpful. I thought I'd found the best there was here, and so didn't give others a chance cause, frankly, I was biased. Always meet new people, always get to know others. I learned that there are actually lots of good people - I was just looking in the wrong areas for them. I tried to stick to a group I thought I belonged to, and when I felt kicked out I tried to stay... then I realized I didn't need them. Not only that, but I didn't want them. I looked elsewhere and found good people. I am much happier now than I've been in the past year and a half or so, and have been feeling like that since around the summer actually.
Another thing that's fairly big for me is that I don't feel like I need a relationship. This is a rare thing for me I guess, but for the first time in a long while I actually am honestly feeling fine about being single. I want to revel in this for however long it lasts. I think I used to kinda shrug it off, but kinda want it. Now I am completely at ease about my status. That doesn't necessarily mean everything's easier now though. Matter of fact I'm currently confused about some things. Though I have felt more calm and relaxed. Wish I could transfer some of that into my work.