Tonight's phone call had better be full of laughter and fun. I need fun.
I am just full of hurt tonight.
I am going to stop reading old entries for a long time. Both mine and those of friends. Not worth remembering old pain, or finding new things to cause it.
This is just sad. I am remembering things that happened more than a year ago, and it hurts. And I am remembering things that happened less than six months ago, and it hurts. And I found out things today that happened two months ago, and it hurts, too.
I'm going to stop reading old entries for a long time.
I'm kind of a worthless piece of human, aren't I? I feel that way. And I also feel like maybe there's no point, because even the oldest of friends will stab you at some point. And the people who care most about you will let you down. You have to take care of yourself, and tread very, very cautiously. Because people are people and no matter how long you know them, or how much they love you, they will eventually hurt you in some way, just as you will hurt them. We'll all human, and tonight I just feel hurt and sad.
I am going to stop reading old entries for a long time. Both mine and those of friends. Not worth remembering old pain, or finding new things to cause it.
This is just sad. I am remembering things that happened more than a year ago, and it hurts. And I am remembering things that happened less than six months ago, and it hurts. And I found out things today that happened two months ago, and it hurts, too.
I'm going to stop reading old entries for a long time.
I'm kind of a worthless piece of human, aren't I? I feel that way. And I also feel like maybe there's no point, because even the oldest of friends will stab you at some point. And the people who care most about you will let you down. You have to take care of yourself, and tread very, very cautiously. Because people are people and no matter how long you know them, or how much they love you, they will eventually hurt you in some way, just as you will hurt them. We'll all human, and tonight I just feel hurt and sad.