somone just like me?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:43:51 PM): im waiting for devon to get online
Bananaboat1219 (5:43:56 PM): lol
Bananaboat1219 (5:43:58 PM): thats cute
Eliana Banana 1 (5:44:01 PM): im so infatuated with that boy's personality....i just dont understand it...he is like this wonderful person, and you dont get a lot of those now...
Bananaboat1219 (5:44:23 PM): more than allen?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:44:25 PM): its like he is just so intellectual and sweet and he just doesnt care what anybody thinks of him or anything...
Bananaboat1219 (5:44:27 PM): or is it temporary?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:44:34 PM): no no no, you see its differernt
Eliana Banana 1 (5:44:42 PM): its not like how i feel about allen
Eliana Banana 1 (5:44:48 PM): i feel TRUE LOVE for allen
Bananaboat1219 (5:44:48 PM): yea
Eliana Banana 1 (5:45:02 PM): i ADMIRE devon, i want to be just like him! i am just like him too!
Eliana Banana 1 (5:45:18 PM): i was to suck up all his talent and all his thoughts and smart qualities and everything
Eliana Banana 1 (5:45:32 PM): he is still young and growing, he doesnt know where he is headed but he is so sure of so many things his mind is clear and so precise, i admire him because of the way his mind works, i feel really cool vibes from him....
Bananaboat1219 (5:52:10 PM): so u would never consider devon?
Bananaboat1219 (5:52:17 PM): did u want to kiss him?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:53:24 PM): in some ways yes because he draws my attention
Eliana Banana 1 (5:53:32 PM): but it was because he was so understanding of me
Bananaboat1219 (5:53:33 PM): did u consider it?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:53:59 PM): i really liked him...but i never considered kissing him
Eliana Banana 1 (5:54:09 PM): i only thought about it, thought about how that would work, if i would enjoy it, but never once thought about going through it because i would NEVER cheat on allen, and i still dont know whats going on between allen and i...
Bananaboat1219 (5:54:25 PM): could u tell he was too?
Bananaboat1219 (5:54:30 PM): did u talk about it?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:54:39 PM): he told me he thought i was amazing and such...
Bananaboat1219 (5:55:05 PM): and?
Bananaboat1219 (5:55:13 PM): didnt u feel like doing something about it?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:56:45 PM): i held his hand once, maybe twice, and walked around with him, but it wasnt for physical pleasure for either of us, it was for the connection we had....i cant really explain it....i KNOW he didnt want to "get some" like most guys do when they like you, he wasnt even perverted like you would think, he was just sweet and caring, took care of me when i felt sick and just kind of had this general campassion for people (like most good buddhists do!)
Eliana Banana 1 (5:56:56 PM): but it was more becaise of the intellectual disscussions we had
Eliana Banana 1 (5:57:00 PM): they were amazing
Bananaboat1219 (5:58:14 PM): do u have those with allen?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:58:23 PM): yes i do!!
Eliana Banana 1 (5:58:26 PM): but not recently...
Eliana Banana 1 (5:58:48 PM): i missed talking to someone with my same political and religious and social views
Eliana Banana 1 (5:58:54 PM): i dont know why....
Eliana Banana 1 (5:59:04 PM): i guess its just cool not to feel alone sometimes
Bananaboat1219 (5:59:20 PM): it always is.
Bananaboat1219 (5:59:31 PM): thats crazy that u met someone exactly like u!
Eliana Banana 1 (5:59:34 PM): wanna know how i met him? it was so cool!
Eliana Banana 1 (5:59:37 PM): i know!
Bananaboat1219 (5:59:43 PM): but u and allen usually agree right
Bananaboat1219 (5:59:49 PM): how ?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:59:56 PM): yes we do! a lot!
Eliana Banana 1 (5:59:56 PM): i was in my room and i heard once of my FAVORITE cds playing!~
Bananaboat1219 (6:00:16 PM): and?
Eliana Banana 1 (6:00:36 PM): and i started asking everyone in the dorms " are you listening to sgt. peppers?" "are you listening to the beetles?" "blah blah blah" and everypone was like sgt who?
Eliana Banana 1 (6:01:09 PM): and then i realised it was the window across from mine oonly like 5 feet away
Eliana Banana 1 (6:01:13 PM): and so i yelled out my window
Eliana Banana 1 (6:01:20 PM): and its like real late at night..
Eliana Banana 1 (6:01:28 PM): "hey! are you listening to sgt peppers?"
Eliana Banana 1 (6:01:36 PM): and there were all these guys who came to the window
Eliana Banana 1 (6:01:53 PM): and they were all like "umm...uhh...we dont know...
Eliana Banana 1 (6:02:10 PM): and then devon came over and was like, yeah, thats my cd
Eliana Banana 1 (6:02:18 PM): and i was like is that sgt peppers by the beetles
Eliana Banana 1 (6:02:20 PM): and he is like yeah
Eliana Banana 1 (6:02:27 PM): and i was all are you listoning to #13?
Eliana Banana 1 (6:02:37 PM): and he was like yeah! irts one of my favorites!
Bananaboat1219 (6:02:41 PM): lol
Eliana Banana 1 (6:02:45 PM): and i was like yeah me too! and #8
Bananaboat1219 (6:03:11 PM): lol
Eliana Banana 1 (6:04:10 PM): and he was like "within you without you!-i love that song too its my all time favorite on this cd"
Eliana Banana 1 (6:04:19 PM): and he started singing it out of his window!
Eliana Banana 1 (6:04:23 PM): and i was bustin up
Eliana Banana 1 (6:04:47 PM): and he was like "do you like s & g" and i was like "hell yeah! simon and garfunkle are amazing!"
Eliana Banana 1 (6:05:01 PM): and he was like "wow, i have never met anyone who listons to anything like i do
Eliana Banana 1 (6:05:10 PM): and i was completely astonished as well
Eliana Banana 1 (6:05:23 PM): so next thing ya know we both have buddhuist dads and he is an "intellectual buddhist"
Eliana Banana 1 (6:05:34 PM): he is an amazing buddhist too, much better then i am
Eliana Banana 1 (6:05:38 PM): and he does all this cool hippie, buddhist stuff...and wears tie-dye! haha...well, sometimes...not a lot anyways...
Eliana Banana 1 (6:05:44 PM): and he meditates
Eliana Banana 1 (6:05:48 PM): he is so centered
Eliana Banana 1 (6:06:13 PM): and he wont take normal medicines as much as possible, but instead he takes herbs and does accupunture! isnt that sooo cool!!!
Bananaboat1219 (6:07:05 PM): thats hella tight lol
Bananaboat1219 (6:07:07 PM): its scary
Bananaboat1219 (6:07:14 PM): its like a taller guy version of u
Bananaboat1219 (6:07:15 PM): haha
Eliana Banana 1 (6:07:32 PM): except he is 13!~
Eliana Banana 1 (6:07:39 PM): i was soooooo shocked
Eliana Banana 1 (6:07:45 PM): he is like 6 feet frerakin tall!
Bananaboat1219 (6:07:58 PM): lol
Eliana Banana 1 (6:07:59 PM): and he has hair that is like as long as mine and blonde, green eyes too...
Bananaboat1219 (6:08:10 PM): lol
Eliana Banana 1 (6:08:31 PM): and he plays sax
Eliana Banana 1 (6:08:37 PM): he is ok, like im ok...not wonderful, but decent with out trying too hard...
Eliana Banana 1 (6:08:49 PM): but he loves music
Eliana Banana 1 (6:08:56 PM): and jazz! he loves jazz!
Eliana Banana 1 (6:09:03 PM): and we both would eat the same things
Eliana Banana 1 (6:09:57 PM): like everyone would get caffeteria food that was hella gross made from like powder and all pre-frozen andf stuff
Eliana Banana 1 (6:10:14 PM): and we would eat bagles and cerial and sanwiches and stuff
Eliana Banana 1 (6:10:30 PM): no one could stand hanging out with us after a while tho because our converstaions were so intense!
Eliana Banana 1 (6:10:31 PM): hahaha
Bananaboat1219 (6:10:49 PM): lol
Eliana Banana 1 (6:10:54 PM): so we hung out with kat and peter, kat and peter were dating, so they were like talking to eachother and we would talk to eachother and not have to deal with everyone nagging us...
Eliana Banana 1 (6:24:05 PM): dude, and you know what else!
Eliana Banana 1 (6:24:16 PM): my brother was sooo over protective at camp!
Bananaboat1219 (6:24:17 PM): huh?
Eliana Banana 1 (6:24:18 PM): hahaha
Bananaboat1219 (6:24:21 PM): LOL!
Bananaboat1219 (6:24:23 PM): hahaha!
Bananaboat1219 (6:24:25 PM): why?
Eliana Banana 1 (6:24:46 PM): he was like, whenever i was hanging outb wirth guys he would come over and say "so eliana, hows allen....youre boyfriend?"
Bananaboat1219 (6:25:04 PM): HAHHA!
Bananaboat1219 (6:25:06 PM): OMG! LOL!
Bananaboat1219 (6:25:10 PM): thats so funny
Eliana Banana 1 (6:25:16 PM): and i would just be like...he is great! i havent talked to him, but im being optimistic and hoping he is good"
Eliana Banana 1 (6:25:25 PM): and he would be like..." oh" and walk away
Eliana Banana 1 (6:25:27 PM): haha
Eliana Banana 1 (6:26:07 PM): and once i was walking with devon and he yells out ":Eliana Fedora *****" (<-not posting my last name on the internet) and im like...yeah? and he was like..'oh nothing, just trying to distract you a little"
Eliana Banana 1 (6:26:14 PM): hahaha!
Bananaboat1219 (6:26:41 PM): lol
Bananaboat1219 (6:26:44 PM): hes cute
Eliana Banana 1 (6:26:56 PM): and today he tells me, i didnt like that devon kid too much...everyone said he liked you....and i was like, no we were just friends and hung out a lot, you should give him a chance and giulio was like, whatever...
Bananaboat1219 (6:27:16 PM): HAHAH!
Eliana Banana 1 (6:28:37 PM): we were just friends tho, and i was really proud about that, we were completely calm and mellow about it and just hung out, comepletely friendly and thats it
Eliana Banana 1 (6:28:39 PM): it was nice
Eliana Banana 1 (6:28:55 PM): i missed not feeling uncomfortable around people
Bananaboat1219 (6:29:11 PM): did u hug?
Eliana Banana 1 (6:29:31 PM): ya know, you just feel like you have to look good and stuff...but with devon i was just like whatever and he didnt care, because he was just like whatever too, it was a good friendship
Eliana Banana 1 (6:29:43 PM): and anyways...he lives like 2 and a half hours away
Bananaboat1219 (6:29:45 PM): lol coolio
Eliana Banana 1 (6:29:47 PM): yeah sorta
Eliana Banana 1 (6:30:05 PM): not much
Eliana Banana 1 (6:30:20 PM): i was VERY serious about the FRIENDS ONLY thing
Eliana Banana 1 (6:30:47 PM): and i only had to tell him once for him to understand that, which was nice since every other guy its like you have to remind them over and over again
Eliana Banana 1 (6:31:19 PM): ill just talk to him on the net now and stuff
Eliana Banana 1 (6:32:10 PM): im sure we will stay friends
Bananaboat1219 (6:32:32 PM): thats good
Eliana Banana 1 (6:32:52 PM): yeah
Bananaboat1219 (5:43:56 PM): lol
Bananaboat1219 (5:43:58 PM): thats cute
Eliana Banana 1 (5:44:01 PM): im so infatuated with that boy's personality....i just dont understand it...he is like this wonderful person, and you dont get a lot of those now...
Bananaboat1219 (5:44:23 PM): more than allen?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:44:25 PM): its like he is just so intellectual and sweet and he just doesnt care what anybody thinks of him or anything...
Bananaboat1219 (5:44:27 PM): or is it temporary?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:44:34 PM): no no no, you see its differernt
Eliana Banana 1 (5:44:42 PM): its not like how i feel about allen
Eliana Banana 1 (5:44:48 PM): i feel TRUE LOVE for allen
Bananaboat1219 (5:44:48 PM): yea
Eliana Banana 1 (5:45:02 PM): i ADMIRE devon, i want to be just like him! i am just like him too!
Eliana Banana 1 (5:45:18 PM): i was to suck up all his talent and all his thoughts and smart qualities and everything
Eliana Banana 1 (5:45:32 PM): he is still young and growing, he doesnt know where he is headed but he is so sure of so many things his mind is clear and so precise, i admire him because of the way his mind works, i feel really cool vibes from him....
Bananaboat1219 (5:52:10 PM): so u would never consider devon?
Bananaboat1219 (5:52:17 PM): did u want to kiss him?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:53:24 PM): in some ways yes because he draws my attention
Eliana Banana 1 (5:53:32 PM): but it was because he was so understanding of me
Bananaboat1219 (5:53:33 PM): did u consider it?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:53:59 PM): i really liked him...but i never considered kissing him
Eliana Banana 1 (5:54:09 PM): i only thought about it, thought about how that would work, if i would enjoy it, but never once thought about going through it because i would NEVER cheat on allen, and i still dont know whats going on between allen and i...
Bananaboat1219 (5:54:25 PM): could u tell he was too?
Bananaboat1219 (5:54:30 PM): did u talk about it?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:54:39 PM): he told me he thought i was amazing and such...
Bananaboat1219 (5:55:05 PM): and?
Bananaboat1219 (5:55:13 PM): didnt u feel like doing something about it?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:56:45 PM): i held his hand once, maybe twice, and walked around with him, but it wasnt for physical pleasure for either of us, it was for the connection we had....i cant really explain it....i KNOW he didnt want to "get some" like most guys do when they like you, he wasnt even perverted like you would think, he was just sweet and caring, took care of me when i felt sick and just kind of had this general campassion for people (like most good buddhists do!)
Eliana Banana 1 (5:56:56 PM): but it was more becaise of the intellectual disscussions we had
Eliana Banana 1 (5:57:00 PM): they were amazing
Bananaboat1219 (5:58:14 PM): do u have those with allen?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:58:23 PM): yes i do!!
Eliana Banana 1 (5:58:26 PM): but not recently...
Eliana Banana 1 (5:58:48 PM): i missed talking to someone with my same political and religious and social views
Eliana Banana 1 (5:58:54 PM): i dont know why....
Eliana Banana 1 (5:59:04 PM): i guess its just cool not to feel alone sometimes
Bananaboat1219 (5:59:20 PM): it always is.
Bananaboat1219 (5:59:31 PM): thats crazy that u met someone exactly like u!
Eliana Banana 1 (5:59:34 PM): wanna know how i met him? it was so cool!
Eliana Banana 1 (5:59:37 PM): i know!
Bananaboat1219 (5:59:43 PM): but u and allen usually agree right
Bananaboat1219 (5:59:49 PM): how ?
Eliana Banana 1 (5:59:56 PM): yes we do! a lot!
Eliana Banana 1 (5:59:56 PM): i was in my room and i heard once of my FAVORITE cds playing!~
Bananaboat1219 (6:00:16 PM): and?
Eliana Banana 1 (6:00:36 PM): and i started asking everyone in the dorms " are you listening to sgt. peppers?" "are you listening to the beetles?" "blah blah blah" and everypone was like sgt who?
Eliana Banana 1 (6:01:09 PM): and then i realised it was the window across from mine oonly like 5 feet away
Eliana Banana 1 (6:01:13 PM): and so i yelled out my window
Eliana Banana 1 (6:01:20 PM): and its like real late at night..
Eliana Banana 1 (6:01:28 PM): "hey! are you listening to sgt peppers?"
Eliana Banana 1 (6:01:36 PM): and there were all these guys who came to the window
Eliana Banana 1 (6:01:53 PM): and they were all like "umm...uhh...we dont know...
Eliana Banana 1 (6:02:10 PM): and then devon came over and was like, yeah, thats my cd
Eliana Banana 1 (6:02:18 PM): and i was like is that sgt peppers by the beetles
Eliana Banana 1 (6:02:20 PM): and he is like yeah
Eliana Banana 1 (6:02:27 PM): and i was all are you listoning to #13?
Eliana Banana 1 (6:02:37 PM): and he was like yeah! irts one of my favorites!
Bananaboat1219 (6:02:41 PM): lol
Eliana Banana 1 (6:02:45 PM): and i was like yeah me too! and #8
Bananaboat1219 (6:03:11 PM): lol
Eliana Banana 1 (6:04:10 PM): and he was like "within you without you!-i love that song too its my all time favorite on this cd"
Eliana Banana 1 (6:04:19 PM): and he started singing it out of his window!
Eliana Banana 1 (6:04:23 PM): and i was bustin up
Eliana Banana 1 (6:04:47 PM): and he was like "do you like s & g" and i was like "hell yeah! simon and garfunkle are amazing!"
Eliana Banana 1 (6:05:01 PM): and he was like "wow, i have never met anyone who listons to anything like i do
Eliana Banana 1 (6:05:10 PM): and i was completely astonished as well
Eliana Banana 1 (6:05:23 PM): so next thing ya know we both have buddhuist dads and he is an "intellectual buddhist"
Eliana Banana 1 (6:05:34 PM): he is an amazing buddhist too, much better then i am
Eliana Banana 1 (6:05:38 PM): and he does all this cool hippie, buddhist stuff...and wears tie-dye! haha...well, sometimes...not a lot anyways...
Eliana Banana 1 (6:05:44 PM): and he meditates
Eliana Banana 1 (6:05:48 PM): he is so centered
Eliana Banana 1 (6:06:13 PM): and he wont take normal medicines as much as possible, but instead he takes herbs and does accupunture! isnt that sooo cool!!!
Bananaboat1219 (6:07:05 PM): thats hella tight lol
Bananaboat1219 (6:07:07 PM): its scary
Bananaboat1219 (6:07:14 PM): its like a taller guy version of u
Bananaboat1219 (6:07:15 PM): haha
Eliana Banana 1 (6:07:32 PM): except he is 13!~
Eliana Banana 1 (6:07:39 PM): i was soooooo shocked
Eliana Banana 1 (6:07:45 PM): he is like 6 feet frerakin tall!
Bananaboat1219 (6:07:58 PM): lol
Eliana Banana 1 (6:07:59 PM): and he has hair that is like as long as mine and blonde, green eyes too...
Bananaboat1219 (6:08:10 PM): lol
Eliana Banana 1 (6:08:31 PM): and he plays sax
Eliana Banana 1 (6:08:37 PM): he is ok, like im ok...not wonderful, but decent with out trying too hard...
Eliana Banana 1 (6:08:49 PM): but he loves music
Eliana Banana 1 (6:08:56 PM): and jazz! he loves jazz!
Eliana Banana 1 (6:09:03 PM): and we both would eat the same things
Eliana Banana 1 (6:09:57 PM): like everyone would get caffeteria food that was hella gross made from like powder and all pre-frozen andf stuff
Eliana Banana 1 (6:10:14 PM): and we would eat bagles and cerial and sanwiches and stuff
Eliana Banana 1 (6:10:30 PM): no one could stand hanging out with us after a while tho because our converstaions were so intense!
Eliana Banana 1 (6:10:31 PM): hahaha
Bananaboat1219 (6:10:49 PM): lol
Eliana Banana 1 (6:10:54 PM): so we hung out with kat and peter, kat and peter were dating, so they were like talking to eachother and we would talk to eachother and not have to deal with everyone nagging us...
Eliana Banana 1 (6:24:05 PM): dude, and you know what else!
Eliana Banana 1 (6:24:16 PM): my brother was sooo over protective at camp!
Bananaboat1219 (6:24:17 PM): huh?
Eliana Banana 1 (6:24:18 PM): hahaha
Bananaboat1219 (6:24:21 PM): LOL!
Bananaboat1219 (6:24:23 PM): hahaha!
Bananaboat1219 (6:24:25 PM): why?
Eliana Banana 1 (6:24:46 PM): he was like, whenever i was hanging outb wirth guys he would come over and say "so eliana, hows allen....youre boyfriend?"
Bananaboat1219 (6:25:04 PM): HAHHA!
Bananaboat1219 (6:25:06 PM): OMG! LOL!
Bananaboat1219 (6:25:10 PM): thats so funny
Eliana Banana 1 (6:25:16 PM): and i would just be like...he is great! i havent talked to him, but im being optimistic and hoping he is good"
Eliana Banana 1 (6:25:25 PM): and he would be like..." oh" and walk away
Eliana Banana 1 (6:25:27 PM): haha
Eliana Banana 1 (6:26:07 PM): and once i was walking with devon and he yells out ":Eliana Fedora *****" (<-not posting my last name on the internet) and im like...yeah? and he was like..'oh nothing, just trying to distract you a little"
Eliana Banana 1 (6:26:14 PM): hahaha!
Bananaboat1219 (6:26:41 PM): lol
Bananaboat1219 (6:26:44 PM): hes cute
Eliana Banana 1 (6:26:56 PM): and today he tells me, i didnt like that devon kid too much...everyone said he liked you....and i was like, no we were just friends and hung out a lot, you should give him a chance and giulio was like, whatever...
Bananaboat1219 (6:27:16 PM): HAHAH!
Eliana Banana 1 (6:28:37 PM): we were just friends tho, and i was really proud about that, we were completely calm and mellow about it and just hung out, comepletely friendly and thats it
Eliana Banana 1 (6:28:39 PM): it was nice
Eliana Banana 1 (6:28:55 PM): i missed not feeling uncomfortable around people
Bananaboat1219 (6:29:11 PM): did u hug?
Eliana Banana 1 (6:29:31 PM): ya know, you just feel like you have to look good and stuff...but with devon i was just like whatever and he didnt care, because he was just like whatever too, it was a good friendship
Eliana Banana 1 (6:29:43 PM): and anyways...he lives like 2 and a half hours away
Bananaboat1219 (6:29:45 PM): lol coolio
Eliana Banana 1 (6:29:47 PM): yeah sorta
Eliana Banana 1 (6:30:05 PM): not much
Eliana Banana 1 (6:30:20 PM): i was VERY serious about the FRIENDS ONLY thing
Eliana Banana 1 (6:30:47 PM): and i only had to tell him once for him to understand that, which was nice since every other guy its like you have to remind them over and over again
Eliana Banana 1 (6:31:19 PM): ill just talk to him on the net now and stuff
Eliana Banana 1 (6:32:10 PM): im sure we will stay friends
Bananaboat1219 (6:32:32 PM): thats good
Eliana Banana 1 (6:32:52 PM): yeah