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[eliade]

I feel as if I'm posting fugitively again, from my seat here in the downtown Seattle Public Library. Each time I visit, more significance becomes associated with the actions; the people around me are on missions tense and meaningful. The pressure of compressed time pushes me; I keep forgetting to choose a length longer than the default thirty

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[oleander9999]

Dearest Anna.

I just happened to open LJ at the right time and saw today's post and then read back through to early March. Stunned by what you're having to go through, but also by the insight and skill with which you're recording it and grateful that you're sharing your thoughts and impressions with us here. It reminds me of nothing so much as Evgenia Ginzburg's amazing "Into the Whirlwind" (you may know it,) an account of the life of a professor with a family and a home whose world was turned inside out in one night when she was arrested as part of a Stalinist purge and who spent decades in prisons and camps, but never let it tarnish her soul.

Your time in Siberia won't be that extensive, of course, but your writing here is kin to hers, to her indefatigable humanity and clear-eyed assessment of herself and all those, good and bad, she encountered in her time through the looking glass. Your writing talent has always been a shining beacon and even as my heart aches for you, I feel great hope for you because you have such a beautiful voice and I believe that it will carry you to peace and safety and happiness.

I will be checking back often and sending good thoughts for better days and warm hugs. With love.

[oleander9999]

p.s. So very sorry about your mom. I lost my dad in October and even though the circumstances weren't so awful, gone is gone, and it's hard. Hugs and love.