The rest of the rant

[eli_zee]

Okay, so i just remembered... I forgot to write that the biggest motivation to stick to this plan was Architect. He said he could come on the 18th here and i really wanted to look good for him, just in case we end up having sex. The other day he told me he probably won't be coming. Strangely enough, i'm still jogging, even though there's no motivation from him. I really thought we were heading in the right direction, but after he said he won't come, we stopped chatting every night, even though we've been online forever. Not quite sure what to make of it, but it's not the right time to think about.
I just realized what a wonderful summer i had with B. I do miss him (the tinniest bit) after all.
Okay, i think i might be getting a bit sleepy. Better use the chance, lol.