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I don't know what it is, but there's defintaely something affecting a certain type of people. There's always something in common with certain people I manage to get on with and alot of them are feeling weird, definately in a negative way. I don't know about anyone else but I just feel lost, like I want to cry, like everything I do is false and I'm not who I want to be. I don't know what to do with myself, ok there's things like getting a job, moving to go to college etc. but none of those are real, they're not necessary, they're just things to waste fill time, but until what? I've been trying to be a much more positive person, but all the bouncyness and happiness and even socialness is all made up, I know trying to be positive all the time won't work as it can't exist without negativity, but it just feels either negative or neutrally blank all the damn time.
I may come out with random spraffs like this in short doses, bear with me, feel free to chip in. As I said, comments are screened.
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I don't know what it is, but there's defintaely something affecting a certain type of people. There's always something in common with certain people I manage to get on with and alot of them are feeling weird, definately in a negative way. I don't know about anyone else but I just feel lost, like I want to cry, like everything I do is false and I'm not who I want to be. I don't know what to do with myself, ok there's things like getting a job, moving to go to college etc. but none of those are real, they're not necessary, they're just things to waste fill time, but until what? I've been trying to be a much more positive person, but all the bouncyness and happiness and even socialness is all made up, I know trying to be positive all the time won't work as it can't exist without negativity, but it just feels either negative or neutrally blank all the damn time.
I may come out with random spraffs like this in short doses, bear with me, feel free to chip in. As I said, comments are screened.
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