I am ugly.

[elfwreck]

We are all, sometimes, ugly; we have dark and vicious thoughts, and insensitive beliefs, and shallow interests we spend too much energy on, and we all occasionally over-react or hurt someone who didn't deserve it. (Whether anyone "deserves" to be hurt is a question for another time.)

Inasmuch as I am ugly--in the areas I am not kind and generous

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[brock_tn]

I never know if I'm being honest and showing integrity, or if I cast a really good glamour of it.

It is my considered opinion that a person lacking integrity could NEVER have written that post. And I doubt that Sine and Sana would have been anywhere as laudatory as they were if they did not have similar opinions of you.

...I also worry that I use that ability (to be able to tap into that) to mask my own flaws.

EVERYBODY wants to mask their own flaws. It's MUCH harder than it seems, and damned near impossible unless one is deliberately deceptive in one's relations with others. Yon post of yours was pretty much the antithesis of "deliberately deceptive."

Because when I try to wax philosophical without tapping into that current, I often kick off bitchy, petty flamewars. So this was, in part, trying to acknowledge myself as not just "speaker for the gods" but "bitchy woman who doesn't know when to shut up."

Elf, honey, to which Goddess is your devotion given? What is that Goddess most famous for?

My experience has been that over time people tend to become more like those Gods to Whom they are devoted.

[elfwreck]

My experience has been that over time people tend to become more like those Gods to Whom they are devoted.

I've occasionally pointed that out... that I'm a Discordian, and not in the casual "I like a good surreal joke" kind of way. That I'm Feri, and that means a devotion to a style of awareness that makes a lot of people uncomfortable. I generally get told some variant of "this is not about your religion; this is about [important issue X]." As if I could set my religion aside for Important Issues.

Or, perhaps, as if all religions were essentially the same, and since it's their religion says "anger is a vice to be avoided," they can't imagine otherwise.