I'll be honest
Over the last while (last couple of weeks in particular) I have found myself struggling with my self-worth.
I suppose because in my mind I see it being measured in a particular way - a way that seems so un-attainable right now, or at least beyone my control (right now).
I know so much of the change starts with me, and that if I don't start with change then I won't see any. But it would also be nice if just for once a girl was interested in me for me. I know I do myself a disservice by my appearance, but I also feel I am a decent bloke who has things to offer.
Also I wish learning to trust & rely solely on God didn't have to mean months and months of trying to talk with Him with almost no response. It would be great to hear/feel a word of comfort, but there seems to be very little of anything.
I'm sure I'll be over this period of time soon, but right now it sux and doesn't feel terribly pleasant.
I suppose because in my mind I see it being measured in a particular way - a way that seems so un-attainable right now, or at least beyone my control (right now).
I know so much of the change starts with me, and that if I don't start with change then I won't see any. But it would also be nice if just for once a girl was interested in me for me. I know I do myself a disservice by my appearance, but I also feel I am a decent bloke who has things to offer.
Also I wish learning to trust & rely solely on God didn't have to mean months and months of trying to talk with Him with almost no response. It would be great to hear/feel a word of comfort, but there seems to be very little of anything.
I'm sure I'll be over this period of time soon, but right now it sux and doesn't feel terribly pleasant.