weirdest weekend for quite a while
Wow, what amazingly contrasting weekends I've just had!
Last weekend was fantastic - I met some friends down at Batemans Bay and had a relaxing time. Spent Saturday night on the beach, and then mini-golf, some Hog's Breath for lunch and fishing on the Clyde River (with some having more success than others) on Sunday, then back home Sunday night hanging out with the same people over a movie and some din dins. It was a good weekend - not a care in the world.
However this weekend just gone, with the exception of an exception rock show Sunday night and speaking with a couple of Canadians first thing Saturday morning (always a joy :)), wan't nearly as good. Due to a combination of things I managed to get myself a little worked up, with the main focus being something I felt I wasn't able to shake. Fact is it really wasn't as bad as I made it out to be, but sometimes we can't just ignore our feelings, and I felt that to help myself the best thing was to share with certain people what what was on my heart. The only problem with that is that sometimes you either don't get everything out that you want to say, or things don't come out the way you're hoping they will. I think a bit of both were involved, but it really doesn't matter now.
Basically I heard something Friday night that I totally wasn't expecting, and honestly it hurt a bit. It wasn't them though - they are both top people... I love them both consider it a privilege to be their friend - no, it was the more the change in group dynamic that I'm sure will now result. That and most likely a frustration of "when will it be my turn?". Combined with pre-existing frustration of feeling like God is distant (like VERY distant) and really doesn't want to be hearing my prayers, it made the whole weekend not terribly splendid. But I seem to have woken up this morning to the storm being over, and am now just in the mop-up. I'm much happier and back to my usual self :)
Apologies to those who watching me this weekend and thinking "just suck it up, fella!" It's something I should have been able to just accept and get on with, but for reasons previously described I didn't. Having said that I'm also learning the way I dealt with things on the weekend is just who I am. Things turn into a much bigger deal than they need to be, I allow them to cripple me, and then fairly shortly after I'm back to normal.
Last night was awesome - saw Pearl Jam up at the SFS with my youngest brother and my younger brother & his girlfriend. It was a hot afternoon/evening, I'm not gonna lie (I think it was around 40°C yesterday afternoon), but an evening well worth it! A good selection of songs were played - I was hoping for more of the classics like Alive, Nothingman, Rearview Mirror etc. but it wasn't to be. But that's OK. I missed out on their show the last time they were out here, so I was super glad to catch them this time :)
Edit: I just posted this and then realised:
a) how long it's been since I've posted on this thing
b) even though I still check this thing quite often (usually daily) I have no idea how many friends still check this or even still have an account
c) times change
Last weekend was fantastic - I met some friends down at Batemans Bay and had a relaxing time. Spent Saturday night on the beach, and then mini-golf, some Hog's Breath for lunch and fishing on the Clyde River (with some having more success than others) on Sunday, then back home Sunday night hanging out with the same people over a movie and some din dins. It was a good weekend - not a care in the world.
However this weekend just gone, with the exception of an exception rock show Sunday night and speaking with a couple of Canadians first thing Saturday morning (always a joy :)), wan't nearly as good. Due to a combination of things I managed to get myself a little worked up, with the main focus being something I felt I wasn't able to shake. Fact is it really wasn't as bad as I made it out to be, but sometimes we can't just ignore our feelings, and I felt that to help myself the best thing was to share with certain people what what was on my heart. The only problem with that is that sometimes you either don't get everything out that you want to say, or things don't come out the way you're hoping they will. I think a bit of both were involved, but it really doesn't matter now.
Basically I heard something Friday night that I totally wasn't expecting, and honestly it hurt a bit. It wasn't them though - they are both top people... I love them both consider it a privilege to be their friend - no, it was the more the change in group dynamic that I'm sure will now result. That and most likely a frustration of "when will it be my turn?". Combined with pre-existing frustration of feeling like God is distant (like VERY distant) and really doesn't want to be hearing my prayers, it made the whole weekend not terribly splendid. But I seem to have woken up this morning to the storm being over, and am now just in the mop-up. I'm much happier and back to my usual self :)
Apologies to those who watching me this weekend and thinking "just suck it up, fella!" It's something I should have been able to just accept and get on with, but for reasons previously described I didn't. Having said that I'm also learning the way I dealt with things on the weekend is just who I am. Things turn into a much bigger deal than they need to be, I allow them to cripple me, and then fairly shortly after I'm back to normal.
Last night was awesome - saw Pearl Jam up at the SFS with my youngest brother and my younger brother & his girlfriend. It was a hot afternoon/evening, I'm not gonna lie (I think it was around 40°C yesterday afternoon), but an evening well worth it! A good selection of songs were played - I was hoping for more of the classics like Alive, Nothingman, Rearview Mirror etc. but it wasn't to be. But that's OK. I missed out on their show the last time they were out here, so I was super glad to catch them this time :)
Edit: I just posted this and then realised:
a) how long it's been since I've posted on this thing
b) even though I still check this thing quite often (usually daily) I have no idea how many friends still check this or even still have an account
c) times change