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So tomorrow, I've got a psychologist appointment and a psychiatrist appointment.
I'm not really worried about the psychologist appointment, even though its an hour, because she ends up talking ot my parents forever. The only potential problem is if she's been talking to Mrs. M...then I'll probably get reamed out for going to Mrs. M instead of her or mom. It's always easy to tell if she's talked to Mrs. M...she's got all sorts of stuff about me that I didn't tell her. Like last time she was asking me how I felt about myself and stuff...only person who I've ever actually told is Mrs. M, and I'm pretty sure she told her about that. I'm actually hoping that they've only talked that one time...but who knows. And I know that neither of them is going to tell me otherwise.
I'm actually kind of worried about the psychiatrist appointment...because from what I tell my doctor is a little ticked at me. According to my psychologist I'm going to have to regain his trust, blah blah blah. You have to look at it from my point of view though. I don't think I've ever actually lied to the guy. I mean, I'm in his office 10 minutes a month tops. The medicine was helping. And I believe the last time I was in there, I hadn't started cutting again. So it's not like I lied to him. Of course they all probably assume I did. Whatever. I feel like I'm fighting a war against the three of them...My mother, and my doctors. And my one ally was half-way recruited to thier side.
For those of you that don't know the difference, pyshchologist does the therapy, psychiatrist perscribes the medicine.
I'm not really worried about the psychologist appointment, even though its an hour, because she ends up talking ot my parents forever. The only potential problem is if she's been talking to Mrs. M...then I'll probably get reamed out for going to Mrs. M instead of her or mom. It's always easy to tell if she's talked to Mrs. M...she's got all sorts of stuff about me that I didn't tell her. Like last time she was asking me how I felt about myself and stuff...only person who I've ever actually told is Mrs. M, and I'm pretty sure she told her about that. I'm actually hoping that they've only talked that one time...but who knows. And I know that neither of them is going to tell me otherwise.
I'm actually kind of worried about the psychiatrist appointment...because from what I tell my doctor is a little ticked at me. According to my psychologist I'm going to have to regain his trust, blah blah blah. You have to look at it from my point of view though. I don't think I've ever actually lied to the guy. I mean, I'm in his office 10 minutes a month tops. The medicine was helping. And I believe the last time I was in there, I hadn't started cutting again. So it's not like I lied to him. Of course they all probably assume I did. Whatever. I feel like I'm fighting a war against the three of them...My mother, and my doctors. And my one ally was half-way recruited to thier side.
For those of you that don't know the difference, pyshchologist does the therapy, psychiatrist perscribes the medicine.