Re: Buncha CommentselfmaidApril 12 2009, 18:19:22 UTC
Well! *said cheerfully*
For a guy who claims " I don't really have a good internal model for how "triggered" diseases work. " You seem exceptionally clueful!
Painting the switches LOL, I LOVE that analogy! I shall have to do just that! What a wonderful idea! Hm, you know, sometimes I don't know something is a trigger until long after it's been flipped... but that's also just part and parcel of the whole package *rolls eyes*.
"waking up from something". Well yes, I guess I am - and it's probably why I've put off exercize for so long, cause it's increasingly obvious to me that having no excuses health wise anymore isn't going to cut the mustard far as my carear and things are concerned... mind you I'm JUST smart enough not to tangle with that just yet. Have to remember not to be a typical sagitarian and meet crap head on, full force, all 4 hooves flailing madly in my rush to conquer all and then wonder why I fall flat on my face and do a lipstand. (imagine a centaur doing a lipstand, wow THAT's some silly shit right there!)
As for the park... heh well it's been closer to 7 years I've been here, thanks to everyone's help - and yes, I'm only just discovering things off Main street itself in my quest to get my heart rate up without killing myself. I've been that many years without much pysical activity, living in front of my computer screen with my head in the clouds or even in the sand. *nods wisely*
And yes it IS a 'win' to have found it AND admit to binge eating and give myself credit for having not only been honest, but sharing my secret shame and then admitting I done good. THAT is the healthy Amy that fights the thing in my head and more often wins these days after 10+ years of fighting. Did I mention I HATE my bulimia? The thing is, it's enough like alcoholism or any other compulsive problem that it served a valid (if destructive) purpose for many years and learning to live without it is scarey. Like you, I have no frame of reference without it distorting my perceptions and behaviour. *nods*
SO there ya go, doesn't make sense I suppose, but then a mental illness just doesn't at that.
HUGZ to you! I appreciate the help far more than you know! It's really scarey for me to reach out, and I get very ashamed of how this still kills me, and THAT is what makes it even deadlier to deal with. Shame is such a crappy thing.
For a guy who claims " I don't really have a good internal model for how "triggered" diseases work.
" You seem exceptionally clueful!
Painting the switches LOL, I LOVE that analogy! I shall have to do just that! What a wonderful idea! Hm, you know, sometimes I don't know something is a trigger until long after it's been flipped... but that's also just part and parcel of the whole package *rolls eyes*.
"waking up from something". Well yes, I guess I am - and it's probably why I've put off exercize for so long, cause it's increasingly obvious to me that having no excuses health wise anymore isn't going to cut the mustard far as my carear and things are concerned... mind you I'm JUST smart enough not to tangle with that just yet. Have to remember not to be a typical sagitarian and meet crap head on, full force, all 4 hooves flailing madly in my rush to conquer all and then wonder why I fall flat on my face and do a lipstand. (imagine a centaur doing a lipstand, wow THAT's some silly shit right there!)
As for the park... heh well it's been closer to 7 years I've been here, thanks to everyone's help - and yes, I'm only just discovering things off Main street itself in my quest to get my heart rate up without killing myself. I've been that many years without much pysical activity, living in front of my computer screen with my head in the clouds or even in the sand. *nods wisely*
And yes it IS a 'win' to have found it AND admit to binge eating and give myself credit for having not only been honest, but sharing my secret shame and then admitting I done good. THAT is the healthy Amy that fights the thing in my head and more often wins these days after 10+ years of fighting. Did I mention I HATE my bulimia? The thing is, it's enough like alcoholism or any other compulsive problem that it served a valid (if destructive) purpose for many years and learning to live without it is scarey. Like you, I have no frame of reference without it distorting my perceptions and behaviour. *nods*
SO there ya go, doesn't make sense I suppose, but then a mental illness just doesn't at that.
HUGZ to you! I appreciate the help far more than you know! It's really scarey for me to reach out, and I get very ashamed of how this still kills me, and THAT is what makes it even deadlier to deal with. Shame is such a crappy thing.
Woot to my friends!
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