bummed out
So, I have a sore throat. Woke up with it for no particular reason. I have no other symptoms. My ears *might* hurt, but it might also be pain radiating up from my throat. Ugh. Have taken four Ibuprofen over the last seven hours.
I'm really hoping I'm not legit sick, because this week is the official first week of work - last week we worked too, but the kids were grouped weird and we had different schedules. The number of campers doubles in size this week, and tomorrow is the first day for a lot of them, so I really wanted to be there as unit leader to get things on track. If I'm not there, it won't be the end of the world, but it's still a big inconvenience. Darn...
Also I'm supposed to be getting together with Lani and Rini tonight. ): I told them they can still come if they aren't worried about getting sick from me. I don't have a fever or anything. But it might be wiser if they don't come. That sucks, I've been looking forward to seeing them all week.
(But really, I have no other symptoms. What the heck is this. In the spring, I had a couple weeks of feeling nasty with a very sore throat, especially in the morning. I thought it might be strep, but never went to get it checked out, and eventually it went away. I hope this is just a bug.)
Last week of work was really hit or miss... Some bad things happened and I spent the majority of the week feeling stressed and incompetent. I shouldn't be feeling that way - this is year three working at this place, so I should know how things run. This week has got to be better or I'm really going to wonder about my judgment. The end of the week went much smoother, so hopefully that's a sign that the early problems were just the result of getting back into a routine I haven't done in a year.
Also am starting to get worried for the conference. I sent off the last payment and they're making T-shirts and I found photos of pre-conference delegates from Japan working hard and looking smart together. I still really, really doubt whether I'm up for this, smarts-wise. So I'm looking forward to the adventure, and at the same time I'm wondering if I'm going to spend the whole time hiding from people. This is exactly what I don't want to do. I got more confidence in myself last fall, with the study abroad group in Japan. So I'm hoping that'll buoy me through August. And basically as soon as the conference ends, the semester begins. I'll be back on campus a couple days early and a few days after that, classes start. It's a heavy load this semester, but I'm looking forward to the classes themselves (just not the homework). I feel stupid for not signing up for anything music-related. I still can, and will probably rejoin hand drums or the chorus. Wish gamelan ran in the fall. (Actually I want to take another Marc class, like Japanese or African music. Can't fit it into my schedule though. わぁああ、どうしよう。)
I'm working on ASB Ch 11 at the moment. I finally figured a way around the problems I was having. Hopefully it works. But I'm feeling weirdly tired right now, so I dunno how much I'll get done. The one sucky thing about this job is how beat I am when I get home - way too sore and tired to do much else than shower, eat and veg. Not much writing gets done during the week. Maybe as time goes on and I readjust to the crazy, I'll feel more up to writing on weekdays.
Right now I'm ridiculously hungry so off to find dinner.
I'm really hoping I'm not legit sick, because this week is the official first week of work - last week we worked too, but the kids were grouped weird and we had different schedules. The number of campers doubles in size this week, and tomorrow is the first day for a lot of them, so I really wanted to be there as unit leader to get things on track. If I'm not there, it won't be the end of the world, but it's still a big inconvenience. Darn...
Also I'm supposed to be getting together with Lani and Rini tonight. ): I told them they can still come if they aren't worried about getting sick from me. I don't have a fever or anything. But it might be wiser if they don't come. That sucks, I've been looking forward to seeing them all week.
(But really, I have no other symptoms. What the heck is this. In the spring, I had a couple weeks of feeling nasty with a very sore throat, especially in the morning. I thought it might be strep, but never went to get it checked out, and eventually it went away. I hope this is just a bug.)
Last week of work was really hit or miss... Some bad things happened and I spent the majority of the week feeling stressed and incompetent. I shouldn't be feeling that way - this is year three working at this place, so I should know how things run. This week has got to be better or I'm really going to wonder about my judgment. The end of the week went much smoother, so hopefully that's a sign that the early problems were just the result of getting back into a routine I haven't done in a year.
Also am starting to get worried for the conference. I sent off the last payment and they're making T-shirts and I found photos of pre-conference delegates from Japan working hard and looking smart together. I still really, really doubt whether I'm up for this, smarts-wise. So I'm looking forward to the adventure, and at the same time I'm wondering if I'm going to spend the whole time hiding from people. This is exactly what I don't want to do. I got more confidence in myself last fall, with the study abroad group in Japan. So I'm hoping that'll buoy me through August. And basically as soon as the conference ends, the semester begins. I'll be back on campus a couple days early and a few days after that, classes start. It's a heavy load this semester, but I'm looking forward to the classes themselves (just not the homework). I feel stupid for not signing up for anything music-related. I still can, and will probably rejoin hand drums or the chorus. Wish gamelan ran in the fall. (Actually I want to take another Marc class, like Japanese or African music. Can't fit it into my schedule though. わぁああ、どうしよう。)
I'm working on ASB Ch 11 at the moment. I finally figured a way around the problems I was having. Hopefully it works. But I'm feeling weirdly tired right now, so I dunno how much I'll get done. The one sucky thing about this job is how beat I am when I get home - way too sore and tired to do much else than shower, eat and veg. Not much writing gets done during the week. Maybe as time goes on and I readjust to the crazy, I'll feel more up to writing on weekdays.
Right now I'm ridiculously hungry so off to find dinner.