Home...eh...
We're home, yay!
We made it home just after 3am on Thursday morning. Oh my god it rained SO MUCH and didn't stop till we were about 50 miles from Chesapeake! Rick had to drive mostly in the middle of the road to avoid the puddles and keep from hydroplaning! We still had some scary times, though, and it was raining so hard that most of the time it was difficult to see the road! Luckily, at that time of night there isn't much traffic so he could do that. I don't know that we did ourselves any favors coming home on US-58 but with the rain, it's probably not a fair assessment.
Not too much going on right now. I'm still feeling a little blah, physically. I'm not getting enough sleep, I don't think. I'm also out of my "Happy Pills" (I take Lexapro for depression) so that might be part of it. Although, yesterday was a bad day for me, emotionally, today seems to be fine. I did go to Curves in Roanoke but I don't think I'll go today. I'm feeling too drained and my ankle hurts, so that gives me a good excuse to wait till Monday. I have a lot of things to do around the house, anyway.
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Later:
I applied online for a job at the local FoodLion. It's for a customer service type job, not stocking, or anything like that. I think, by the description, it's someone that would mostly work behind the customer service desk, rather than at the check out stations... Although, I think that the position might fill in there, at times. I don't know, but I know that even though I've mostly worked in medical offices in the past few years, I've had a lot of retail experience and was always good at cashiering. And now, you don't even have to push buttons, just scan things. I can sure as hell do that.
The job I really wanted at the hospital was filled without me getting an interview. Rick said that most likely, it was filled internally. People that work in the hospital always have first try at a job, even though the hospital HAS to post it to the general public before it can be filled. I haven't been called by anyone on any of the other jobs, either. I did call once but was told that the HR department would be sending the apps to the department managers and then I'd get a call if they wanted to talk to me. I got the impression, by the way the woman talked to me that me calling was "not how it worked".
I dunno. I'm getting kinda discouraged... But I HAVE to find something. It's getting harder for us to take care of what has to be taken care of. We have to put off paying the car payment this time, too. It's only going to get worse the longer I'm without a job. I'll never be able to pull in a lot of money, but even if I can bring in something, it helps take the pressure off of Rick. I need to get more serious in looking for a job. I'm a slacker....
On another topic, for those of you that are into reading dreams... I have, for years, had a recurring theme in some of my dreams. The situation, or story, of the dream will be completely different, but it always seems that the circumstances are either the same or very similar. Last night, I dreamt that I was at an old friends parents home (haven't seen or talked to this friend in about 20 to 25 years) and had taken a large load of laundry there to do. I don't remember if I actually did the laundry or if it was "just done" but when it came time for me to leave, it was spread out all over the house, mixed together with the family's laundry, and I had to go around searching for it from room to room. It never seemed as if I could find it all or it would seem to move around, always getting ahead of me.
In another dream, I had a year or so ago, I was in our car and we had kittens on the floor of the back of the car. I got out of the car and opened the back door, for some reason, I don't remember why, and was trying to keep the kittens from getting out of the car. They kept trying to get past me, and I was frantic to keep them in, but wasn't doing a good job. As soon as I corralled one, another would get by me, and I knew that if they got out, something horrible would happen to them.
I can't think of other specific dreams right now, but I know there's been many, many of them over the years. And I always wake up feeling unsettled and upset. Not scared, just like.... useless, unable to do anything right... That kind of feeling. I guess it's obvious that the message has something to do with me not feeling in control of my life, etc.... Any other ideas?
Well, I guess that I've wasted enough time.... I have a lot of housework to do and putting it off won't make it go away, now, will it? I'd rather just go to bed...
We made it home just after 3am on Thursday morning. Oh my god it rained SO MUCH and didn't stop till we were about 50 miles from Chesapeake! Rick had to drive mostly in the middle of the road to avoid the puddles and keep from hydroplaning! We still had some scary times, though, and it was raining so hard that most of the time it was difficult to see the road! Luckily, at that time of night there isn't much traffic so he could do that. I don't know that we did ourselves any favors coming home on US-58 but with the rain, it's probably not a fair assessment.
Not too much going on right now. I'm still feeling a little blah, physically. I'm not getting enough sleep, I don't think. I'm also out of my "Happy Pills" (I take Lexapro for depression) so that might be part of it. Although, yesterday was a bad day for me, emotionally, today seems to be fine. I did go to Curves in Roanoke but I don't think I'll go today. I'm feeling too drained and my ankle hurts, so that gives me a good excuse to wait till Monday. I have a lot of things to do around the house, anyway.
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Later:
I applied online for a job at the local FoodLion. It's for a customer service type job, not stocking, or anything like that. I think, by the description, it's someone that would mostly work behind the customer service desk, rather than at the check out stations... Although, I think that the position might fill in there, at times. I don't know, but I know that even though I've mostly worked in medical offices in the past few years, I've had a lot of retail experience and was always good at cashiering. And now, you don't even have to push buttons, just scan things. I can sure as hell do that.
The job I really wanted at the hospital was filled without me getting an interview. Rick said that most likely, it was filled internally. People that work in the hospital always have first try at a job, even though the hospital HAS to post it to the general public before it can be filled. I haven't been called by anyone on any of the other jobs, either. I did call once but was told that the HR department would be sending the apps to the department managers and then I'd get a call if they wanted to talk to me. I got the impression, by the way the woman talked to me that me calling was "not how it worked".
I dunno. I'm getting kinda discouraged... But I HAVE to find something. It's getting harder for us to take care of what has to be taken care of. We have to put off paying the car payment this time, too. It's only going to get worse the longer I'm without a job. I'll never be able to pull in a lot of money, but even if I can bring in something, it helps take the pressure off of Rick. I need to get more serious in looking for a job. I'm a slacker....
On another topic, for those of you that are into reading dreams... I have, for years, had a recurring theme in some of my dreams. The situation, or story, of the dream will be completely different, but it always seems that the circumstances are either the same or very similar. Last night, I dreamt that I was at an old friends parents home (haven't seen or talked to this friend in about 20 to 25 years) and had taken a large load of laundry there to do. I don't remember if I actually did the laundry or if it was "just done" but when it came time for me to leave, it was spread out all over the house, mixed together with the family's laundry, and I had to go around searching for it from room to room. It never seemed as if I could find it all or it would seem to move around, always getting ahead of me.
In another dream, I had a year or so ago, I was in our car and we had kittens on the floor of the back of the car. I got out of the car and opened the back door, for some reason, I don't remember why, and was trying to keep the kittens from getting out of the car. They kept trying to get past me, and I was frantic to keep them in, but wasn't doing a good job. As soon as I corralled one, another would get by me, and I knew that if they got out, something horrible would happen to them.
I can't think of other specific dreams right now, but I know there's been many, many of them over the years. And I always wake up feeling unsettled and upset. Not scared, just like.... useless, unable to do anything right... That kind of feeling. I guess it's obvious that the message has something to do with me not feeling in control of my life, etc.... Any other ideas?
Well, I guess that I've wasted enough time.... I have a lot of housework to do and putting it off won't make it go away, now, will it? I'd rather just go to bed...