Calling out!!!!!!!!
Okie so yeah.......been feeling quite lonely lately. I was gonna do this huge emo post about it. But I woke up this morning and my depressed mood is gone and so I won't bother as much. But I still wanted to post something to bring stuff to people's attention.
To my local cosplaying friends................... I miss all of you. I never see you guys anymore. I never hear from you either....... never get e-mails, lj comments, phone calls. I feel kinda abandoned. I know I live near Langley so not close, I know I don't go to SFU and I know people are busy and all. But.......... I'm still here......still the same person. I keep reading on the flist how everyone is hanging out, going places, cosplay etc and I don't even get an invite. Sometimes I've even been free for these planned outings but I don't go. Because I don't want to just invite myself along....... I tend to be insecure about my friends and what they think of me. I try not to but worries and doubts set in and when I haven't seen people for like two years that doesn't help. I have borrowed dvds from people I still have from two years ago. I have lent out dvds to people two years ago I do not have back. I don't care about the dvds but it proves how I never see anyone anymore.
I know it takes both people to plan things out and I am more than willing to do my part. But I refuse to be the only one trying.....that's what I kinda feel like. Not being able to go to Sakura Con was the big wake up call for me I guess.
So this is my last call and chance, I want to see you all! I know it won't be all the time but more than the few brief moments at cons would be nice.......... so please I am calling out and I hope I get some replies! :)
UPDATE: I feel kinda silly for posting this now >.< But oh well lj are for silly weak emo moments right? I do want to clarify I left something out I thought I had written sorries! I do realize that most of the time getting together is totally random. I more post this to get my feelings out and show I am still wanting to hang out etc. I understand it can't be all of the time with our busy lives. But I do hope to see more of you all than I have in the last two years that's all. So I am sorry if I offended or hurt anyone. I know you all do care etc :)
To my local cosplaying friends................... I miss all of you. I never see you guys anymore. I never hear from you either....... never get e-mails, lj comments, phone calls. I feel kinda abandoned. I know I live near Langley so not close, I know I don't go to SFU and I know people are busy and all. But.......... I'm still here......still the same person. I keep reading on the flist how everyone is hanging out, going places, cosplay etc and I don't even get an invite. Sometimes I've even been free for these planned outings but I don't go. Because I don't want to just invite myself along....... I tend to be insecure about my friends and what they think of me. I try not to but worries and doubts set in and when I haven't seen people for like two years that doesn't help. I have borrowed dvds from people I still have from two years ago. I have lent out dvds to people two years ago I do not have back. I don't care about the dvds but it proves how I never see anyone anymore.
I know it takes both people to plan things out and I am more than willing to do my part. But I refuse to be the only one trying.....that's what I kinda feel like. Not being able to go to Sakura Con was the big wake up call for me I guess.
So this is my last call and chance, I want to see you all! I know it won't be all the time but more than the few brief moments at cons would be nice.......... so please I am calling out and I hope I get some replies! :)
UPDATE: I feel kinda silly for posting this now >.< But oh well lj are for silly weak emo moments right? I do want to clarify I left something out I thought I had written sorries! I do realize that most of the time getting together is totally random. I more post this to get my feelings out and show I am still wanting to hang out etc. I understand it can't be all of the time with our busy lives. But I do hope to see more of you all than I have in the last two years that's all. So I am sorry if I offended or hurt anyone. I know you all do care etc :)