Fic: Change for the better (H/R)
Title: Change for the better
Rating: PG-13
Prompt: #30 - Change
Characters: Harry/Ron
Word Count: 490 (+4 for title)
Summary: Ron wants to be worthy of Harry and so he changes, but is it for the better?
Warnings: Angst I think.
Notes: Not as fluffy as usually. Written for my prompt table at 100quills
Change for the better
When I first met Harry, I felt so lucky that I actually got to talk to him.
When we became friends, I felt extremely grateful that a guy like him would even consider me as a friend.
When we got older, he became so much more perfect than he already was, and I began to feel that I was not worthy of his friendship, that I wasn’t worthy of his company even.
When he told me that he was in love with me, I felt like crying because I knew I would never be good enough for him.
In one way or another we ended up together, and I always wondered how it happened, for I still knew that he deserved better than me.
I tried to change after that, I tried so hard everyday to be more perfect for him, I tried so hard to be a better person for him.
I tried not to get jealous when I saw him smiling at pretty girls who looked dreamily at him, or at handsome guys who eyed him hungrily.
I tried not to go after reporters and beat them up, when they wrote something bad about him in the papers.
I tried to figure out what he would like me to do when we snogged, how he wanted me to be like when we were having sex.
I tried to change for him, tried to change all the bad things and be a better person than what I was.
I tried so hard that my head started to ache, until the day he took my face in his hand and made me look into his tear-filled eyes and said, ‘Why do you do this?’
‘I want to be perfect for you, I want to be worthy of your heart,’ I told him.
The tears started to fall from his eyes then, and I moved to brush them away but he caught my hand with his own and said ‘No’.
He held my hand to his chest and looked into my scared eyes again, ‘You always were perfect before you tried to change Ron, you were always worthy of my heart. You still are, but I want my old Ron back, I don’t want the Ron who tries to be different all the time. I just want the real Ron, the one I fell in love with,’
And then he kissed me so lovingly that I thought my heart would burst in my chest.
He stopped for a second to whisper, ‘I love you,’ and then he kissed me again with as much love as before and I thought: maybe, just for a while, I could try to just be me. If that was what Harry wanted, then I would give it to him.
They used to say: ‘change is always good.’ I had already changed once, and I thought: maybe one more time would make me more perfect for him.