Nov 18, 2010 13:50
The day before yesterday a friend asked me to write her a reference - I've done the odd one for her before, for various jobs or voluntary positions, so I agreed readily.
I wasn't expecting one of the questions to be 'In what way will *** benefit the country if she is awarded the fellowship?'
Yup, it's a fellowship thingy, which will enable her to travel abroad to study and she will then have to return and 'benfit the uk'. So no pressure on me, or anything, it's just, as she explained, her entire career hanging on this...and I've got to have it in by tomorrow. >_<
She also asked me to be her professional mentor, which is cool, but it does somehow make me feel like I might be a grown up now, or something. Not sure I'm ready for that. I still agreed though, because I think we'll both benefit from the deal. And even though I wouldn't admit it out loud I do mentor people already, at work and stuff, so why not? (First thing on the list...don't ask people for important references two days before they're due in...)
All this, a slightly stressful project (during which I am indeed training one of the new guys, which cuts my workrate by about half whilst doubling my workload), the news I'm not only going to start being fire marshall at work, but also responisble for our coshh database, our first aid gear and now probably CAD and CNC trained and I feel like I've got more than enough on my plate. (And no payrise for two years. Despite the boss having agreed I could have one, which means I need to speak to him about that AGAIN, and it was a horrible conversation the first time and not something I really wish to repeat.)
And then, on the non-work side of things, Jojo is still ill and now thoroughly depressed about it all. I feel utterly helpless, because all I can think of are things like 'get outside and get some fresh air', but he can barely make it to the end of the road, or couldn't yesterday, so that's not exactly helpful. Which means we're both stressed, and not sleeping, which isn't helping either of us.
And as much as I like having Jojo at home (and I do - I honestly don't mind working whilst he is at home, and if we could survive on my wage I'd even advocate it), we can't survive on my wage, and his sickpay will be shit when he gets it, so that's crap too.
I just want him to get a job he likes, and enjoy life, and obviously feel better, too. Annoyingly work for him is likely to be in London, which means we may have to consider moving either into or close to London. I really don't want to do that, but I can't pretend it wouldn't make sense, both financially and time-wise. Otherwise between us we would spend 8 hours a day travelling, and be paying out 500 quid a month in rail fares. Plus if we moved to close to where we worked we might have more of a social life.
I just hate London.
So there ya go, my life in a nutshell.