it comes and goes
Feeling a little weird again tonight. This semester flew by so fast, and now I'm running into deadlines and I'm getting scared. Not about the academic deadlines, I'm fine with those - but the deadlines for graduate school applications. The first one, for UMD, is due December 8th and while I have most of the application finished, I have no idea what papers to submit for my writing sample, and I don't actually know who will be writing my recommendation letters.
Well, that's not entirely true. My committee director has already agreed, happily, to write one for me and that's a relief. But I haven't heard back from the other committee member I asked (and sadly I can't ask the third, as I have never had a class with him), nor have I heard back from my undergraduate advisor and I'm worried she might be on sabbatical or something. I need three letters and I'm running out of people to ask. I could ask my teaching mentor, but ideally I should get letters from professors that are familiar with my work as a student and junior colleague.
It's my own fault for waiting so long, but I really lost track of time and it's making my head spin. I can't believe November is almost over. Maybe I'm just getting flustered and frustrated and panicking over nothing. But I don't know. I have no plan for my life - none at all - and finishing a PhD seems like the clearest option at the moment. Yes, I could get a job (and I'm looking) but I feel like I should finish school while I have some momentum behind me.
*sigh*
Why can't people just answer their email?
Well, that's not entirely true. My committee director has already agreed, happily, to write one for me and that's a relief. But I haven't heard back from the other committee member I asked (and sadly I can't ask the third, as I have never had a class with him), nor have I heard back from my undergraduate advisor and I'm worried she might be on sabbatical or something. I need three letters and I'm running out of people to ask. I could ask my teaching mentor, but ideally I should get letters from professors that are familiar with my work as a student and junior colleague.
It's my own fault for waiting so long, but I really lost track of time and it's making my head spin. I can't believe November is almost over. Maybe I'm just getting flustered and frustrated and panicking over nothing. But I don't know. I have no plan for my life - none at all - and finishing a PhD seems like the clearest option at the moment. Yes, I could get a job (and I'm looking) but I feel like I should finish school while I have some momentum behind me.
*sigh*
Why can't people just answer their email?