catching up
well, i just went through and read the entirety of my journal. strange. i look back and realize just how much i've changed, and yet how much i haven't. i mean, my sense of humour hasn't changed. my feelings about many things haven't either. i don't know. i guess it's the added weight of months of experience that make me look back with a clearer eye.
most importantly, i realized that i used to post much more often, and that made me feel guilty. so here i am, with little to say of interest. finals week, blah, blah, blah. christmas break is right around the corner, and my second semester of college. funny, it already feels like i've been doing this forever. i love college - so glad i made it to this point. so much to be grateful for. i complain about my life more than is warranted, i think. it's really not all that bad. not counting my father, of course. assinine prick.
so, my little sister's friend wants me to get her a pregnancy test. she's fourteen. is anyone else seeing a problem here? what the fuck is wrong with this society? i'm so angry and so hurt and so scared and so filled with pity all at once. the only thing i'm sure of is that if she introduces my little sister (also 14) to anything like this -parties, drugs, older boys with bad intentions- i will fucking tear her apart. friend and child that she is. i'm not rational when it comes to alicia. i don't care. and the worst part? this stressed me out to the point of 'nosebleed'. big symptom of jaqui!stressed-ness, the nosebleed. i think i'm focusing on my finals and money issues too much. time to calm back down.
current problem: how am i going to get all of my stuff home for christmas break if my roommate's parents are driving me?
i love music
most importantly, i realized that i used to post much more often, and that made me feel guilty. so here i am, with little to say of interest. finals week, blah, blah, blah. christmas break is right around the corner, and my second semester of college. funny, it already feels like i've been doing this forever. i love college - so glad i made it to this point. so much to be grateful for. i complain about my life more than is warranted, i think. it's really not all that bad. not counting my father, of course. assinine prick.
so, my little sister's friend wants me to get her a pregnancy test. she's fourteen. is anyone else seeing a problem here? what the fuck is wrong with this society? i'm so angry and so hurt and so scared and so filled with pity all at once. the only thing i'm sure of is that if she introduces my little sister (also 14) to anything like this -parties, drugs, older boys with bad intentions- i will fucking tear her apart. friend and child that she is. i'm not rational when it comes to alicia. i don't care. and the worst part? this stressed me out to the point of 'nosebleed'. big symptom of jaqui!stressed-ness, the nosebleed. i think i'm focusing on my finals and money issues too much. time to calm back down.
current problem: how am i going to get all of my stuff home for christmas break if my roommate's parents are driving me?
i love music