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[elextrclygorjus]

ok
i dont know
i dont know how i feel
i like him but i love who i have
...at least i think i do....
im not sure if i love him
GOD I NEED HELP
i dont know how to figure it out
i already did something that im ashamed of ..
i dont wanna do it again
..wow..
i want to be with him ..
but i dont wanna leave mine..
this is to soon..
man i need more time..
k so im calling him..
he didnt answer..he doesnt always..
i love his voice...
i love this song
he makes me feel good
but its wrong...
i know it is..
the relation ..its weird...
he was with her...
but that was years ago
this show is boring
but i dont wanna get up
wanna leave
i wish i could just leave
it would be so easy
to just start over...
but i dont know
i want to ..but i dont
i hate this..
i dont like my life
i wish it were easier
i wish i could decide
i wish i could leave without hurting him...
i want to leave
i want to go far away...
but i dont know where...

..
im so confused..
but also i feel stable
like i could have this forever
i could have him forever..
he wants me forever..
but i dont know why
i could be with him ...
but im not sure if i want to be
i want who i have but ..
i also want another.
i dont know wat to do..
i cant tell any1
they wouldnt understand
because they see him as normal and secure..
but i see his bad side..
not that its bad
its just unusual...
god i want him so much
i wish there were a way i could have him ..but im taken..
...for the moment..

im scared..