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This afternoon I was at the dentist, I got two of my wisdom teeth pulled out and now the anesthetization starts to get weaker. I just hope the pain wont get too bad, it's already annoying enough that I can't blow my nose a whole week long cause they had to sew one of the wholes where a wisdom tooth was before. Thank god I'm actually done with my cold, but well, I have to take antibiotics as well. Besides this opening my mouth hurts, so I will shut up this evening.
Last saturday I was visiting the schizophrenic friend. On the one hand I feel sorry for her, on the other I feel that I really don't want to have too much to do with her anymore. It's not necessarily cause of her psychosis, but we are simply not at all the friends anymore we used to be, and a very long time ago I made my own conclusions (means if other people are so much more important for her I wont give a damn anymore). Well, but actually I do give a damn, at least a little bit, but I also do notice that she isn't interested in a friendship but rather in someone to have at home when her bf is out for work. She can't stay alone, she needs people around her, and I have the very strong feeling that's all what she wants from me: being kind of an entertainer or at least a person who is in the house when her guy is out.
I wanted to be at her appartement at 12 in the noon, but I was twenty minutes too early. She was still sleeping when I was ringing at her door, I didn't know that but I would have ringed anyway. She was saying we were supposed to meet at 12 and I explained why I was too early, but thinking to myself my god, twenty minutes too early! If I had rang the doorbell at twelve I'm sure she wouldn't have been up, too. Next thing was that I should prepare the breakfast-table since we wanted to have a late breakfast together, half an hour later she was done with getting herself ready for the day. We had no very special nice talk and after some time nothing to talk about at all anymore. She wanted to know what I'm going to do next day but I didn't offer to visit her again. I have nothing against getting friends again, but I don't wanna be there for entertainment or being kind of a nurse.
*sighs* Actually this is really bad and actually there is a little more behind all this and I don't know how to handle her. Like can I tell her what I think about this or that without causing another depression and stuff like that. She wanna quit her medications, but on the other hand is afraid to get her pyschoses back, what in my oppinion already happened. She had last week halluzinations, but though wanna quit step by step taking her pills....
Anyway, my jaw and also my head starts hurting more and more, should have a look at the pain killer ;-)
Oh and to Claudi, I already uploaded the LAM quiz last week again, but some things didn't work and then I didn't have internt (we had a worm here) for some days, at least not really. Maybe we meet some night in #lam and can fix the problem?
Last saturday I was visiting the schizophrenic friend. On the one hand I feel sorry for her, on the other I feel that I really don't want to have too much to do with her anymore. It's not necessarily cause of her psychosis, but we are simply not at all the friends anymore we used to be, and a very long time ago I made my own conclusions (means if other people are so much more important for her I wont give a damn anymore). Well, but actually I do give a damn, at least a little bit, but I also do notice that she isn't interested in a friendship but rather in someone to have at home when her bf is out for work. She can't stay alone, she needs people around her, and I have the very strong feeling that's all what she wants from me: being kind of an entertainer or at least a person who is in the house when her guy is out.
I wanted to be at her appartement at 12 in the noon, but I was twenty minutes too early. She was still sleeping when I was ringing at her door, I didn't know that but I would have ringed anyway. She was saying we were supposed to meet at 12 and I explained why I was too early, but thinking to myself my god, twenty minutes too early! If I had rang the doorbell at twelve I'm sure she wouldn't have been up, too. Next thing was that I should prepare the breakfast-table since we wanted to have a late breakfast together, half an hour later she was done with getting herself ready for the day. We had no very special nice talk and after some time nothing to talk about at all anymore. She wanted to know what I'm going to do next day but I didn't offer to visit her again. I have nothing against getting friends again, but I don't wanna be there for entertainment or being kind of a nurse.
*sighs* Actually this is really bad and actually there is a little more behind all this and I don't know how to handle her. Like can I tell her what I think about this or that without causing another depression and stuff like that. She wanna quit her medications, but on the other hand is afraid to get her pyschoses back, what in my oppinion already happened. She had last week halluzinations, but though wanna quit step by step taking her pills....
Anyway, my jaw and also my head starts hurting more and more, should have a look at the pain killer ;-)
Oh and to Claudi, I already uploaded the LAM quiz last week again, but some things didn't work and then I didn't have internt (we had a worm here) for some days, at least not really. Maybe we meet some night in #lam and can fix the problem?