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i'm a horrible person. i am being so unkind to joshua. i can't make up my mind if i should be with him or if i really want to be. he's amazing. i don't think i deserve him. there are too many complications. he doesn't need this.sometimes in order for someone to really understand how things owuld be good otherwise.. you have to do things yourself. you need to break up with them. you feel like shit. you want to crawl under a rock. you want to die