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I suck. I suck at life and I suck at relationships. I'm hurting people left and right. I need to grow up. I'm not a kid anymore and in a little over a month, I won't be a teenager anymore. I guess it's time to stop the fun and start taking life seriously. I'm so glad I hang out with older people. I get to learn life lessons slightly early and I'm learning to be a better person because of them. It sucks when you want to meet everyone in the world, and fuck everyone in the world(metaphorically speaking). It sucks seeing everything through a scientific perspective and not through an emotional, personal perspective. It sucks being curious, and giving in to all temptations. I need more self control for the sake of other people. It just took a certain person to make me realize how much of an idiot I am. I have potential and I'm letting people down. I'm a serious person. I'm ready to take life seriously because I can handle it. I've been seeking the wrong kind of freedom, holding onto the wrong kind of freedom. I've been less of a human, and more like a scientist, and everyone's just my experiment and I stay unbiased and just observe. Scorpios are said to be cold-hearted if having a heart at all, and it's so true. But as an emotional person, I know it's there, I just need to listen to it more. Half of you don't know what the fuck I'm talking about, but it's really the other half I'm trying to reach. Let me just say sorry. I want to change, and I think I can. And I do care. I care a lot.