Its been a lonnnnng time
So...life is 100% different for me than it was when i was frequently updating this thing. I guess I want to write it for my own satisfaction..archived forever.
I divorced Stephen. We separated in April '10 and divorced in Dec. '10. Married for three years. Lots of downs, some ups, but mostly just crazy. Now..I know that I am crazy. It takes a certain type for me to really click with. Obviously Stephen was not it. I did a lot of bad things during that time, i tried to leave him many times but was always met with threats and obstacles. Then one day I found out something that could not be fixed. So i left. For a while i was numb..not eating..not caring. I started to hang out with my friends Matt and Jackie all the time. THey ended up getting a condo, and while helping them get it ready, I met the person that I am with now. He is amazing to me. He has a 5 year old daughter. I never thought i could date someone with that kind of baggage...but not only did he slowly ease me into that part of his life, but he has done nothing but love me and show attention to me constantly. Since leaving my ex-husband, I have stumbled across someone that finally makes me feel like im not alone. I wasnt even looking for anything...and then i just fell into his lap. We have been dating for almost 10 months now, and it still feels like the first. I made mistakes before..but this time, i have the experience to do what is RIGHT. I really believe that I am becoming a better human being. I dont want to say that my boyfriend is the reason, its more that the happiness and potential he brings out in me just seems endless. I have never been so loyal or faithful towards a cause...but HE is my cause. He has brought meaning to my life, and also a desire to be a GOOD person for ONCE IN MY LIFE.
Everything ive ever been through has brought me to where i am now. I wouldnt change anything about it because it has given me a great deal of perspective on life and my own behavior.
Life is forever changing. Anything can happen, out of nowhere. Hold on to what you find. Thats what im learning.
I divorced Stephen. We separated in April '10 and divorced in Dec. '10. Married for three years. Lots of downs, some ups, but mostly just crazy. Now..I know that I am crazy. It takes a certain type for me to really click with. Obviously Stephen was not it. I did a lot of bad things during that time, i tried to leave him many times but was always met with threats and obstacles. Then one day I found out something that could not be fixed. So i left. For a while i was numb..not eating..not caring. I started to hang out with my friends Matt and Jackie all the time. THey ended up getting a condo, and while helping them get it ready, I met the person that I am with now. He is amazing to me. He has a 5 year old daughter. I never thought i could date someone with that kind of baggage...but not only did he slowly ease me into that part of his life, but he has done nothing but love me and show attention to me constantly. Since leaving my ex-husband, I have stumbled across someone that finally makes me feel like im not alone. I wasnt even looking for anything...and then i just fell into his lap. We have been dating for almost 10 months now, and it still feels like the first. I made mistakes before..but this time, i have the experience to do what is RIGHT. I really believe that I am becoming a better human being. I dont want to say that my boyfriend is the reason, its more that the happiness and potential he brings out in me just seems endless. I have never been so loyal or faithful towards a cause...but HE is my cause. He has brought meaning to my life, and also a desire to be a GOOD person for ONCE IN MY LIFE.
Everything ive ever been through has brought me to where i am now. I wouldnt change anything about it because it has given me a great deal of perspective on life and my own behavior.
Life is forever changing. Anything can happen, out of nowhere. Hold on to what you find. Thats what im learning.