incessant renewals.

[elevendonutday]

I don't even know what to think, what to say, what to do, in what way to act,

I can't die right now, not right now, please... not right now.

How have things gotten so so so much less than pleasant?

I shouldn't be where I am right now. I have no one to blame but myself.

I'm in love with all the wrong things in life, in every area of my life. My body, my spirit, my mind, they all hate me.

I hate me.

I just want to start over.

Can I go back 5 years ago?

Things were so promising then.

I'm falling in love.

And it's the wrong time.

The wrong place.

The wrong me.

And now I have to walk it off.

I have to, I have no car.

fuckin' hell.