a much needed update
Music: Eminem- "Like Toy Soldiers"
Mood: Contemplative
hmm...this song really describes my train of thought...i feel that were all toy soldiers...were all fightin...the world...everything...lot of people...chidren...adults...whoever...its all about fightin...battles...guns...weapons...bombs...words...everything...im suprised that theres still life left on the face of the earth...or maybe its just the americas...i couldnt even begin to make an educated guess on the issue...i know its sicknin...i know that some people need to be the bigger person and be like...ok...thats cool...just drop it...but then sometimes...you try to do that...and people persist on poppin shit...yanahmean?...not gonna go into it...but words were exchanged...my name was mention quite frequently to my suprise...just had to let the bitch have it....i mean...it was unrecorded old shit...but still...sometimes its impossible to avoid "certain lines you dont cross and she crossed it"...you feel me?? lately ive been in a rap mood...i dunno why...ive been really into it...oh yeah...just to finish off the subject...check out my page (www.soundclick.com/xximperialxx) its called "case of the obsessive ex"...anyway...onto other things...as for me and roxy...were doing ok i guess...much better then i anticipated...i mean she's showing some progress...so its really hard to say whats gonna happen...i questioned the whole loyalty thing...i questioned it hard...i questioned alotta things...i DO know my craving for having a black chick has returned with a vegence...came back with something fierce...i was even offered to go out and meet a few...i turned it down...i gotta see whats going on with roxy...i dont even know right now...i mean...i see a light...very...VERY slowly...but i dunno...it really depends...i dont know how much more i can take...never thought id meet a girl who was 22 and basically a virgin...but worse...its taking such a turn on me...i never heard/seen anything like it...but i did come to terms with one thing...i wouldnt cheat on her...if i came to think i wanted to be with someone else i would just break up with her first...ive cheated before...and its not a good thing...especially if you care about the person...although it does give you asshole points...when the bitch tries to clown you...you just tell her...u went to ya ex...had an encounter and bounced because she was doing her part in the relationship...roxys a good girl...she really is...i couldnt do that to her...crystal was a smut...and we all know i cheated on her on numerous occasions...with different people...but hey...that was her fault...i guess the shit about roxy has been my biggest issue for a long time...im saying....4-5 weeks now...i dunno...ive chatted with a few people about the situation...and they told me to just quit...i cant just quit though...especially now that I see some light...but...who knows...only time will tell you know...as for everything else...life is really great...got my taxes back...my bills are caught back up almost...lol...im gonna find out about refinancing my house today....theres a local mortgage company...thats advertising 2.95%apr...it would literally cut my payments in half...even for a 30 yr loan...so we'll see about that...you know? the rappin thing...? ive got so much shit ive got to lay down for the new album...i just cant get into the groove to do it...im working on building my studio in the bassment...but bills come first you know??ive even purchased some beats...so there will be ABSOLUTELY NO FREE COPIES...this time ive invested some dough...so im hopin to get the money back in return...thats all im hopin for...i want you to believe...that it will be worth it...and then some...its not gonnabe focused on one subject...infact...there will be NO songs on the album that relate whatsoever to Crystal(Piggy Be Rollin)...so thats something to look out for...if it keeps goin the way it does...im looking for a early fall release...so i better start getting in the "groove" soon...on a brighter note...ive got a phone...through comcast internet...the vonage service its pretty cool...it works and its alot cheaper...=o)...also...im getting boost mobile(prepaid nextel) along with keeping my verizon cell phone to use for work...and the fuckers i know who use nextel....so...i gottabe out...
until the next REAL update...
be safe and may god bless
oh...and BTW...Meredith and Val...I truley love yall =o)
Mood: Contemplative
hmm...this song really describes my train of thought...i feel that were all toy soldiers...were all fightin...the world...everything...lot of people...chidren...adults...whoever...its all about fightin...battles...guns...weapons...bombs...words...everything...im suprised that theres still life left on the face of the earth...or maybe its just the americas...i couldnt even begin to make an educated guess on the issue...i know its sicknin...i know that some people need to be the bigger person and be like...ok...thats cool...just drop it...but then sometimes...you try to do that...and people persist on poppin shit...yanahmean?...not gonna go into it...but words were exchanged...my name was mention quite frequently to my suprise...just had to let the bitch have it....i mean...it was unrecorded old shit...but still...sometimes its impossible to avoid "certain lines you dont cross and she crossed it"...you feel me?? lately ive been in a rap mood...i dunno why...ive been really into it...oh yeah...just to finish off the subject...check out my page (www.soundclick.com/xximperialxx) its called "case of the obsessive ex"...anyway...onto other things...as for me and roxy...were doing ok i guess...much better then i anticipated...i mean she's showing some progress...so its really hard to say whats gonna happen...i questioned the whole loyalty thing...i questioned it hard...i questioned alotta things...i DO know my craving for having a black chick has returned with a vegence...came back with something fierce...i was even offered to go out and meet a few...i turned it down...i gotta see whats going on with roxy...i dont even know right now...i mean...i see a light...very...VERY slowly...but i dunno...it really depends...i dont know how much more i can take...never thought id meet a girl who was 22 and basically a virgin...but worse...its taking such a turn on me...i never heard/seen anything like it...but i did come to terms with one thing...i wouldnt cheat on her...if i came to think i wanted to be with someone else i would just break up with her first...ive cheated before...and its not a good thing...especially if you care about the person...although it does give you asshole points...when the bitch tries to clown you...you just tell her...u went to ya ex...had an encounter and bounced because she was doing her part in the relationship...roxys a good girl...she really is...i couldnt do that to her...crystal was a smut...and we all know i cheated on her on numerous occasions...with different people...but hey...that was her fault...i guess the shit about roxy has been my biggest issue for a long time...im saying....4-5 weeks now...i dunno...ive chatted with a few people about the situation...and they told me to just quit...i cant just quit though...especially now that I see some light...but...who knows...only time will tell you know...as for everything else...life is really great...got my taxes back...my bills are caught back up almost...lol...im gonna find out about refinancing my house today....theres a local mortgage company...thats advertising 2.95%apr...it would literally cut my payments in half...even for a 30 yr loan...so we'll see about that...you know? the rappin thing...? ive got so much shit ive got to lay down for the new album...i just cant get into the groove to do it...im working on building my studio in the bassment...but bills come first you know??ive even purchased some beats...so there will be ABSOLUTELY NO FREE COPIES...this time ive invested some dough...so im hopin to get the money back in return...thats all im hopin for...i want you to believe...that it will be worth it...and then some...its not gonnabe focused on one subject...infact...there will be NO songs on the album that relate whatsoever to Crystal(Piggy Be Rollin)...so thats something to look out for...if it keeps goin the way it does...im looking for a early fall release...so i better start getting in the "groove" soon...on a brighter note...ive got a phone...through comcast internet...the vonage service its pretty cool...it works and its alot cheaper...=o)...also...im getting boost mobile(prepaid nextel) along with keeping my verizon cell phone to use for work...and the fuckers i know who use nextel....so...i gottabe out...
until the next REAL update...
be safe and may god bless
oh...and BTW...Meredith and Val...I truley love yall =o)