A lot to swallow
I met Josh's Mum tonight. She is a hippie to the bone,which is cool.
But Matt was told he acts a lot like his daddy...biologcial daddy...Which kinda scares me.
I mean it scares me to stop and think about not getting married.
I realized Matt is his own person..but still.
Also when I was outside talking to work they apparently got into a convo that was awkward.
And I walked back in the middle. I didn't realize and I walked to go to the bathroom. Matt stopped me...And he did that dragging out shit again! I told him, just fucking spit it out. it hurts so much when he drags it out. (great....I am crying at work....) he asked if I could step into another room while they finish up the convo. All i could tell him was I gotta pee,and closed the door in his face. I sat on the toliet trying to fight the tears. I finally built up courage to exit the bathroom. I walked into the living room and kinda stared at Matt. Josh had just gotten done with hugging him. matt says what? I tell him I am waiting for you to tell me what to do. Josh's mum;Rhonda said I like her she tells you upfront what she wants.
I felt so....Untrusted while I sat on the toliet. Why didn't he want me to know? But on the way to work I came up with maybe it has to do something with Josh.Which would make sense why I can't know. So I accepted that.
But Matt was told he acts a lot like his daddy...biologcial daddy...Which kinda scares me.
I mean it scares me to stop and think about not getting married.
I realized Matt is his own person..but still.
Also when I was outside talking to work they apparently got into a convo that was awkward.
And I walked back in the middle. I didn't realize and I walked to go to the bathroom. Matt stopped me...And he did that dragging out shit again! I told him, just fucking spit it out. it hurts so much when he drags it out. (great....I am crying at work....) he asked if I could step into another room while they finish up the convo. All i could tell him was I gotta pee,and closed the door in his face. I sat on the toliet trying to fight the tears. I finally built up courage to exit the bathroom. I walked into the living room and kinda stared at Matt. Josh had just gotten done with hugging him. matt says what? I tell him I am waiting for you to tell me what to do. Josh's mum;Rhonda said I like her she tells you upfront what she wants.
I felt so....Untrusted while I sat on the toliet. Why didn't he want me to know? But on the way to work I came up with maybe it has to do something with Josh.Which would make sense why I can't know. So I accepted that.