Blue?
I did not go to work today. My back didnt allow me to.
I found out lastnight that my grandpa had checked himself into the hospital cuz he wasnt feeling well. Today we found out at 6 o'clock that he only has 3 or 4 months left to live because he has pancriotic cancer and it has moved to his liver.
Now im physically hurt from my back but I dont know what nor how to feel about this? Any suggestions??? cuz ive got nothin. I have never had to deal with death in my life. So that is what im going to do, is not deal. Pretending like it isnt going to happen always seems to work for me. Plus its the only way I know how to make things better...or better yet, not even there.
"Ignorance is Bliss"
I guess this is the only information you like to receive from me. Cuz it seems to be the only info that you respond to. The road does go both ways, stop heading away from me please. You used to be my best friend for a long time. Now I have found someone new. We talk atleast 6 out of 7 nights of the week. Some times {more often than not} we talk for 3-5 hours, just about stuff. But there is still that one problem...distance. That physical contact of a hug, or just the smile on there face makes that much of a difference in the way that I feel. Planning? hum..its friday night? ?Where are you? Even I know this, because it was planned ahead of time. EVERY WEEK. ¿ <--odd?
e13phant
I found out lastnight that my grandpa had checked himself into the hospital cuz he wasnt feeling well. Today we found out at 6 o'clock that he only has 3 or 4 months left to live because he has pancriotic cancer and it has moved to his liver.
Now im physically hurt from my back but I dont know what nor how to feel about this? Any suggestions??? cuz ive got nothin. I have never had to deal with death in my life. So that is what im going to do, is not deal. Pretending like it isnt going to happen always seems to work for me. Plus its the only way I know how to make things better...or better yet, not even there.
"Ignorance is Bliss"
I guess this is the only information you like to receive from me. Cuz it seems to be the only info that you respond to. The road does go both ways, stop heading away from me please. You used to be my best friend for a long time. Now I have found someone new. We talk atleast 6 out of 7 nights of the week. Some times {more often than not} we talk for 3-5 hours, just about stuff. But there is still that one problem...distance. That physical contact of a hug, or just the smile on there face makes that much of a difference in the way that I feel. Planning? hum..its friday night? ?Where are you? Even I know this, because it was planned ahead of time. EVERY WEEK. ¿ <--odd?
e13phant