why can't the people i don't care about die
today was pretty good. i got up late and wasn't too depressed. i went running in the afternoon so i did something even if it was just a jog. then mom came home and told me that i'm going out shopping at 11 am tomorrow with dr.coant, food shopping why? i have no idea but i don't want to go. why the fuck should i? i'm not close to her and i really don't want top spend more than five minutes with the woman! i really don't want to go for a bonding moment and if this is all it is i'm going to go nuts and i don't care if it insults her! i don't need a bonding moment. and yes you may be saying well she may just want to get together. well i think it's too damn close to my grandparents death to "get together" i don't know what she's pulling but i'm not putting up with this shit. i'm so mad right now b/c noone even asked me she was just like maddy is coming and mom was like ok not even thinking that maybe I WOULDN'T WANT TO GO!!!! fuck this fuck her i know this is rude but i don't want to deal with this shit right now, leave me the fuck alone!!!!!! if i want to talk or see you i'll tell you until that time just shut the fuck up and leave me the fuck alone!