my grandma died this morning..*tear*

[element_chik15]

ok so today around 6:30 am my mom bust's open my door sayin "wake up i need ur cell phone to call dad...botchi died"...n fer those of u who dont kno wut botchi means its polish fer grandmother...so i handed my mom my phone n im sittin up in bed thinkin " im havin a nightmare botchi's not dead...she kant b!...but wen i realized that i was wide awake i broke down n started cryin like a lil pansy...i cryed all day n still am now...so i went to my cousin josh's house cuz thats where she lived to visit w/ my aunts n everyone n they were worse then me...they all took turns goin into her room n saying there goodbyes n it came time fer me to go in there...i didnt go in cuz i didnt want to cuz it would b too hard fer me...so im sittin in the room next to her's sayin my goodbyes to her...n just as i was about to say goodbye ill always love u n think of you in my dreams...i nvr got to cuz the funeral home ppl came n took her to the funeral home...so i nvr got to say goodbye n thats wuts killing me...i miss her soo much n i hope that she knows that....I found a poem online that im going to read at my botchi's funeral...its sooo wicked sad..it made me cry..*tear*

You Meant So Much

You meant so much to all of us
You were special and that's no lie
You brightened up the darkest day
And the cloudiest sky

Your smile alone warmed hearts
Your laugh was like music to hear
I would give absolutely anything
To have you well and standing near

Not a second passes
When you're not on our minds
Your love we will never forget
The hurt will ease in time

Many tears I have seen and cried
They have all poured out like rain
I know that you are happy now
And no longer in any pain.